TWELVE 84

It was a moment I had envisioned in my head countless times. However, I thought that when the time actually came, my mind would go blank and I wouldn’t be able to do anything. That was all a useless worry.

Our lips naturally interlocked. Gi Seoin’s hands wrapped around me. My face and shoulders, my waist and thighs. As soon as he touched me, my body temperature boiled over again.

Something hard pressed against my groin. I slightly lifted my eyelids to check below. It was Gi Seoin’s knee. While we were kissing, he had taken off his lower clothes without me knowing. His center, which was shocking every time I saw it, inevitably caught my eye.

How do we do it with that…?

As soon as I lost my focus, Gi Seoin pulled his lips away. Having met my eyes, he furrowed his brow slightly. Before he could speak, I said first, like an excuse.

“Do you… do you know how to do it?”

As far as I knew, Gi Seoin had no experience in this area at all, just like me. Could we do it properly? This was something that would stay in my memory until I died, so what if we ruined it.

“Are you worried about that?”

However, Gi Seoin asked back with a face that seemed to know nothing of worry.

“Of course I’m worried…”

“Don’t be.”

He flashed a smile.

“I’ll take care of it.”

How are you going to take care of something that neither of us knows?

Questions arose, but I was struck dumb by Gi Seoin’s confident expression and couldn’t ask. Well, since he was so good at kissing that it actually made me suspicious, I decided to trust him. I also wondered if being good or bad at it was really that important.

“Okay, then…”

More than that, the fact that we were touching this closely was what was important…

“You take care of it for me.”

No sooner had I finished speaking than Gi Seoin kissed me again. I grabbed his cheeks.

The bridges of our noses bumped and then each found their place. Our lips overlapped as if they were a perfect match, and his tongue took away my sanity along with my breath.

“Gasp…”

The tips of Gi Seoin’s fingers touched my nipples. Even though it was just a graze, my waist twisted and my breathing grew ragged. Even so, he didn’t pull his lips away and persistently licked the inside of my mouth.

“Heu…”

At the same time, he lowered his waist to bring our genitals together. I couldn’t focus on the kiss anymore. He wrapped his hand around our joined members. My body temperature was already as high as it could get, but his felt as hot as a ball of fire.

With our genitals pressed together, Gi Seoin began to move his hips slowly.

“Heuu…”

“Ah…”

Gi Seoin, who had only looked relaxed, also narrowed his eyes and exhaled feverish breaths. Instead of kissing me again, he buried the tip of his nose in the hollow of my shoulder and wrapped his forearm around my head.

Even though our joined parts were only rubbing up and down slowly enough to feel leisurely, it was so stimulating that it was hard to endure. My lower abdomen was already tingling.

When I reflexively grabbed Gi Seoin’s forearm, he suddenly stopped his hip movements and rubbed the tips of his and mine with his palm. I wondered what he was doing, but he was stealing the clear fluid that had flowed out.

“Seungkyung.”

He called me, and when our gazes met, he kissed my forehead. After that, Gi Seoin took his fluid-stained hand between my thighs.

“…Ah!”

I had suspected it, but the place his wet fingertips actually touched was between my buttocks. My gaze was fixed on Gi Seoin’s member. For an instant, fear covered my mind, and I reflexively brought my thighs together and grabbed his wrist.

“….”

Gi Seoin just stared at me quietly as if he understood my feelings. I swallowed hard and then parted my lips.

“Do you… do it there?”

“Do you hate it?”

“It’s not that I hate it… it’s just, I’m a bit scared.”

It was meant to ask for time.

But Gi Seoin seemed to have taken it differently.

“If you’re scared, should I lie down?”

“Huh?”

I needed a moment to understand the meaning of Gi Seoin’s words. I shook my head hurriedly.

“No.”

“You said you were scared.”

Of course I’m scared. It feels like I might die if all of that thing I see goes inside me.

On the other hand, a thought like ‘but surely I won’t die’ occurs to me. Once we actually do it, it will probably be manageable. A human body isn’t that weak. I decided to believe that. And…

“Anyway, in my imagination, you were always on top of me.”

To be honest, I had never once thought that I should go on top of Gi Seoin.

Gi Seoin curled up the corners of his mouth.

“Was that so?”

“Yeah.”

“Why? You can do it.”

“I don’t want to. What if you’re in pain.”

I would rather be in pain myself than cause Gi Seoin pain.

“Then it’s okay for you to be in pain?”

He was truly being himself. He should have just done it. It’s hard to answer when he asks logically like this.

“Uh…”

I hesitated and then covered his cheeks with both hands.

“I just have to look at your face.”

“Is my face some kind of painkiller?”

“Something like that.”

Since he was more sensitive than anyone else to me being in pain, I was nervous that he might suggest we just don’t do it.

“Okay, then.”

But for some reason, my improvisation seemed to have worked, and Gi Seoin said with a satisfied face.

“Look at my face every time it hurts.”

“…Usually, doesn’t one say they’ll make sure it doesn’t hurt in times like this?”

“Because I’m not confident about that.”

I’ve lived to hear the words ‘not confident’ from Gi Seoin’s mouth. I liked that he was honest rather than lying.

Now that we had confirmed each other’s intent, more conversation was unnecessary. I raised my head and kissed him.

Gi Seoin kissed me fiercely, as if telling me to lose my mind from suffocation rather than being scared. The back of my head was shoved into the pillow again. I hugged the nape of his neck, and Gi Seoin gently held and shook my member.

“Heu, gasp…!”

Before long, I ejaculated while still kissing him. Gi Seoin didn’t even give me a gap to shake off the afterglow and gathered the semen that had splattered on my stomach with his palm. The next step was, naturally, to wet the area between my buttocks.

“Ugh…”

As soon as his fingertips touched that spot, strength gathered in my thighs automatically. Then, Gi Seoin coaxed me to spread my legs again by stroking my groin with his other hand as if tickling me.

“Ah, eu.”

The fingertips that were rubbing the entrance in a circle seemed to move away, and then suddenly, one finger went in. Even with just one finger, I felt a foreign sensation enough to be uncomfortable.

Fortunately, it didn’t hurt. It was probably thanks to Gi Seoin being so careful…

“…Seoin!”

Suddenly, Gi Seoin, who had moved down, took my member into his mouth. He teased the front with his tongue and carefully pressed and massaged the inside with his finger.

And he said he wasn’t confident he could make it not hurt. I didn’t stop him further and tried to relax while stroking his hair back.

The member that had just finished ejaculating swelled up again quickly, and the uncomfortable foreign sensation gradually faded. Around then, a second finger entered. I bit my lower lip without making a sound.

As soon as I lowered my gaze, my eyes locked with Gi Seoin’s. I could feel the tenderness of him observing my reaction with all his senses.

“Hut…”

Eventually, at the moment the urge to ejaculate surged, as soon as I jerked my waist with a sound, Gi Seoin pulled his lips away from my member.

“Don’t come. Come when you’re with me.”

I’m with you right now. My mind was preoccupied with the urge to ejaculate, so I wanted to say that. However, because I knew what moment he desired, I endured it.

Gi Seoin once again got the fluid that had flowed out instead of semen on his hand. This time…

“Ah…!”

Three fingers went inside.

his hand movements became bolder. The power and speed of rubbing the inside were distinctly different from the beginning. The sensation below, which had only been a foreign feeling, seemed to change as well. It didn’t feel like I was going to ejaculate, but my lower abdomen tightened and my waist felt ticklish, just like when my member was being teased.

Actually, it was okay even if I didn’t feel pleasure. The greatest meaning lay in the fact that I was doing it with Gi Seoin…

“Ha-ugh!”

What was that just now?

I opened my eyes, which I had squinted shut, and looked down at him; he was beaming as he pulled his fingers out from below. Then, he positioned himself properly over me and grabbed his own member, and after sucking on my lower lip as if swallowing it, he spoke.

“Don’t close your eyes. Because your painkiller is right here.”

“….”

I swallowed hard. Gi Seoin pushed my thighs to spread them wider, and soon, something heavy touched my bottom.

“Heu… Ah, huu-ugh!”

I tried to hold my breath, but the moment my bottom opened up, my mouth opened along with it.

“Haa, eu, hut…!”

“Ah…”

In a bad way, sparks flew before my eyes. To put it simply, it was among the top pains I had ever felt. It felt like my body was being split into two. However, I didn’t want to stop.

Recalling Gi Seoin’s words, I opened my eyes that kept trying to close. Without even having to look for him, he was right in front of my nose. I touched his face. Tears flowed down my temples.

“Try to… relax.”

“Huu-ugh, hut…”

He probably wasn’t as much as I was, but Gi Seoin also looked like he was struggling. He kept telling me to relax, but I didn’t know how to do that. Just enduring the pain exhausted me.

“Haa…”

Gi Seoin breathed heavily and moved his hips back and forth slowly.

“Don’t cry.”

Having whispered that, he licked the corners of my eyes and then put distance between us again so that I could see him.

Every time I saw his face, the impulse to run away because of the pain subsided. It was a moment where I realized how much I wanted him.

“Heuk, heu, a-ugh!”

Gi Seoin, who had been moving shallowly, pushed in a little deeper.

“Ha-ugh, heuk, heuu…! Ha-ugh!”

Suddenly, a feeling that couldn’t be expressed in words wrapped around me from head to toe. The hands that had been holding onto Gi Seoin’s face dropped down. The muscles that had been shrunken from the pain suddenly let go. My thighs trembled.

“What… is it…? Ha, heu-ugh!”

Gi Seoin didn’t answer and moved his hips exactly as he had a moment ago. Then, my waist bounced up once more. My heart throbbed. When I hugged his back, Gi Seoin pressed his lips to my ear.

“Can you do without the painkiller now?”

“Eu, heu… Haa! Hut! Ha-ag…!”

His movements became much bolder than before. Yet, strangely, it didn’t hurt that much. Every time Gi Seoin’s thing pierced deep inside, my spine tingled sharply. The legs that had been trembling lost all their strength and swung around haphazardly. Then, he hooked my legs over his shoulders. As the position changed, his member delved even deeper inside me.

“Ha-eu-ugh…!”

“Haa, ah…”

Gi Seoin, who had straightened his upper body, rubbed his cheek against my leg and kissed it. Meanwhile, his hips didn’t rest for even a moment. The glans, which reached to the very end of my insides, repeatedly pulled out to the entrance and then thrust back in.

The sounds bursting from my mouth grew louder and louder, and the eyes I had been trying so hard to keep open closed. Now, the corners of my eyes were wet not because of pain, but because of pleasure.

“Ah, ah, heu, haa, ha-ugh…!”

“Haa, ha, ha…”

Hearing his breathing, which had become unfamiliarly rough, I barely managed to lift my eyelids. Gi Seoin was making an expression I had never seen before. Wanting to touch that face, I reached out my hand, and he came closer and hugged me altogether. I also hugged him as if clinging to him. The skin stuck together was damp and hot.

“Ha, a, heu, Seoin, a, heu, a!”

“Ha, haa, a, hut…!”

Our breathing mixed messily, and I lost consciousness after being swept away by an overwhelming climax.