TWELVE 49

I felt ashamed of my own clumsiness and moved my tongue tentatively. In contrast, Gi Seoin delved into me with a familiar and skillful ease.

I visualized the sharp, red tip of his tongue that I had caught a glimpse of earlier. The thought of it entwining with mine, sweeping over my teeth, and licking the roof of my mouth made me flush instantly.

The problem was that this wasn’t just a thought; it was actually happening.

Though I had hesitated at first, I soon found myself moving in rhythm with Gi Seoin. When he wrapped around my tongue, I enveloped that hot tongue of his in return. I tensed the tip of my tongue to sweep upward against the roof of his mouth, pressed down as if piercing the root of his tongue before sliding up, and rubbed against the tender flesh inside his mouth.

As the kissing grew more uninhibited, our body heat rose. Feeling the grip of the hand wrapped around the nape of my neck gradually tighten, I realized that Gi Seoin was also excited.

We tilted our heads back and forth several times, ransacking each other’s mouths as if checking to see if a single spot had been missed. Even though I hadn’t eaten anything sweet, his tongue tasted sweet. Saliva overflowed as if my appetite had been whetted. Unable to swallow it all in time, my chin became wet.

I felt lightheaded from the lack of oxygen, but I didn’t want to stop. The desire flowing with time only swelled further. My lower abdomen tingled as if Gi Seoin’s tongue had touched the very inside of my body. I wasn’t so innocent that I didn’t know the meaning of this reaction.

Eventually, I breathed out and in while our lips were still locked. During that brief pause, Gi Seoin pressed down on my resting tongue with his own and flicked the tip. Simultaneously, the hand that had been holding the nape of my neck slid down my spine. Goosebumps erupted at the sensation of his touch tracing my vertebrae.

Soon, the hand reached my waist and lightly tickled my side.

“Hng…”

When I twisted my waist to avoid the tickling, a large hand gripped my pelvis firmly. Our lips overlapped even more deeply. With no hand to support me, my head fell back as if my neck might snap.

Bracing one knee on the sofa and straightening his upper body, Gi Seoin pushed me fiercely. I wondered if it was okay to be like this when it was only our second kiss. Rather than feeling resentful, I was scared. If it’s like this now, what does he plan to do for the third one?

“Mmph…”

When I pulled on Gi Seoin’s waist, he pulled his lips away. I let out my trapped breath in a rush and then sucked it back in immediately. His heated lips were currently kissing the area below my ear, my neck, and my shoulder.

“It tickles…”

I pinched and pulled at his waist and forearm again, but he didn’t seem to care. Gi Seoin licked the protruding and hollow parts of my neck as if tracing them. At the moment I felt his lips touch me, he even bit down with his front teeth. It wasn’t to the point of pain, but it was a shocking stimulus that made my entire spine tingle.

Even though we weren’t doing anything grand, I couldn’t keep my wits about me. I was at the point of wondering if Gi Seoin had cast a spell on me.

Gi Seoin caressed my neck with his lips for a long time while his hands touched everywhere they could reach. Only on my upper body, of course… I felt relieved inwardly, thinking that he was being careful.

However, the palm that had suddenly landed on my chest dropped down to my thigh in an instant.

“Wait…!”

I pulled my upper body back and swatted away his hand as it tried to knead my thigh.

Our eyes met, and for a moment, we just breathed heavily in silence.

“Haah, that…”

“Is it hard for you?”

While I hesitated, Gi Seoin asked first and wiped the corners of my mouth.

“Uh, yeah… I’m out of breath.”

Feeling like I should do the same, I rubbed the corner of Gi Seoin’s mouth with my thumb. The place my hand touched and then left turned noticeably red. That, in turn, felt erotic. Right now, I was in a state where wholesome thoughts were impossible. Still, I thought it was a relief that I could at least recognize that myself.

Feeling like I had to say something, I babbled whatever came to mind.

“This is really dizzying.”

“It is. And hot.”

“Yeah, hot…”

As I chimed in and checked Gi Seoin’s face, I realized his gaze was directed between my legs. Even though I knew it was useless, I pulled my legs together.

“Ahem, ahem! I, some water…”

“I’ll get it for you.”

I don’t know if Gi Seoin also found this moment awkward, but he gave the impression of standing up quickly. And I, by some irresistible force, glanced between his legs.

What?

Gi Seoin’s ‘thing’ was quiet. If something that size changed, it was impossible not to notice. But the area near his thighs looked the same as usual.

Am I the only pervert?

I looked down between my own legs. The moment the thought occurred that I was the only one in a fret, it subsided significantly, but since the aftereffects remained, it felt like the silhouette was still visible.

At any rate, it was certain that it would have been clearly revealed when the momentum was high. Gi Seoin must have witnessed it plainly…

I felt like I could faint from embarrassment, yet I didn’t know why my mind was so clear.

“Drink it lukewarm.”

At the sound of the voice ringing above the crown of my head, I snapped my head up. I hadn’t realized when Gi Seoin had returned. I quickly took the cup he offered.

“Thanks.”

Hoping that my tone or expression didn’t look stupid, I emptied the cup of water in one go.

What should I say now? How should I act? How does everyone move on naturally after skinship? Is it normal to be this embarrassed? Is it because it’s my first time…?

“Seungkyung-ah.”

“Huh? Yeah?”

“Are you uncomfortable anywhere?”

“No? I’m completely fine.”

At that moment, it would have been better if I hadn’t noticed Gi Seoin’s gaze scanning my lower half again before coming back up.

“How about…”

Gi Seoin gestured toward the bedroom with his chin.

“Do you want to rest in the room?”

“Huh? Why? I’m perfectly fine.”

“I wondered if perhaps you needed some personal time.”

I only hoped that there was no other meaning behind the term ‘personal time.’ For instance, ‘time to resolve unquenched excitement alone.’

“Not particularly… Why, Gi Seoin, do you have work to do? Should I give you some space?”

“I like being with you.”

“Oh… really? Okay, then.”

I thought Gi Seoin would sit next to me like before, but he lay down using my thigh as a pillow. I didn’t hate it, but I played a prank because I wanted to resolve the embarrassment.

“You’re just lying down on a patient’s leg.”

“Should we switch?”

“No, just lie there.”

Since Gi Seoin was lying flat on his back, our eyes met immediately when I looked down. He stared as if he were openly observing me. It was a bit burdensome, and I was curious as to what there was to see.

Come to think of it, just as much as I admired Gi Seoin, Gi Seoin often stared intently at me. There were times when that gaze was so persistent and shameless that it was actually flustering.

“What is there to see that you’re staring?”

“It’s fun, watching you.”

“Do you mean I look funny?”

“Something like that.”

“You’re going to get it, seriously.”

When I made a gesture as if to give him a noogie, Gi Seoin laughed until his eyes crinkled. He looked visibly in a good mood. Was it because I was really funny? Or was it because the kiss with me wasn’t bad?

Honestly, I was curious. I had no dating experience at this age, and naturally, what I did with Gi Seoin was my first kiss. I had seen and heard things, so I did it, but my skill must have been terrible.

Then is there no point in asking? No, still, regardless of skill, we could at least talk about the sensation or the feeling.

As for me, the sensation was… well, my body had reacted on my behalf, so there was nothing more to say. Conversely, my feelings were ambiguous. It was unsettling to say it was good, yet I was in a state of being flushed in a positive sense to say it was bad.

The reason it was unsettling was, first of all, because Gi Seoin was too good at it for a first kiss. And his attitude afterward was too relaxed.

On the day we had our first kiss, I thought it was okay even if I wasn’t his first partner, and I meant it. But having done it a second time, my mind had changed.

I could tell through intuition and gut feeling. He must have had a first kiss partner. To put it bluntly, I’m jealous. It’s not something he necessarily has to reveal to me, but the thought of Gi Seoin doing this with someone else without my knowledge makes my stomach twist.

Wait, but…

‘Both my first peck and my first kiss are with Woo Seungkyung.’

Gi Seoin had definitely said that.

Did he lie?

Unlike me and my complicated thoughts, he was peacefully observing me while lying on my thigh. It was uncharacteristically irritating. Is it really okay to give him a noogie?

“Gi Seoin.”

I decided to hear the full story first before deciding whether to give him a noogie or not.

“I’m not your first kiss, am I?”

“Why. Are you anxious?”

Would it be okay to give him a light noogie in advance?

“…It’s not that, it’s just, it didn’t feel like your first.”

“It was my first.”

“Honestly, be hooonestly honest.”

“It hooonestly was.”

“You’re teasing me, aren’t you.”

“Isn’t following someone around for 18 years just to tease them a bit too much effort?”

That’s true.

I nodded without realizing it. I was caught by Gi Seoin. I can’t get a confession this way.

I pulled myself together. At this moment, I had to be cold to him. Without being bewitched by Gi Seoin’s face… But why is he pretty even when he’s lying down? My chin would be all folded and stuff… No. I must cast aside these thoughts!

“Really, am I your first kiss?”

“Yes.”

“But why…”

“…Why?”

“Why… are you good at it?”

I really didn’t want to give him this kind of praise for no reason, but I couldn’t help it. It was only fair to let him know the motive for my suspicion.

“Am I good?”

“It seemed like you were.”

“Then that’s a relief.”

“Are you trying to change the subject?”

“I’m not changing it; I was being serious.”

“What, were you worried you’d be bad at it since it was your first time?”

I almost ended up confessing my true inner thoughts. I should be careful.

“I was worried.”

Gi Seoin said it quite plainly.

“Since we’re doing it, it’s better to be good at it.”

He didn’t seem to be lying.

“But seeing you, I did think it must not have been bad.”

“Me? Why?”

“…”

Gi Seoin’s gaze snapped downward before coming back up.

Right.

My physical reaction definitely made it clear that the kiss was quite good.

I ended up digging my own grave.

I wonder if they sell medicine that makes you lose your memory?