Vol 5 Ch 20

Inseop trembled without being able to push Lee Wooyeon away or hold him. Through the squelching sounds, Inseop’s trembling breaths mixed with sobbing. It felt like madness. It wasn’t just something to say; just by sucking Inseop’s lower body, he felt like he could come. Lee Wooyeon eventually made Inseop come while he was crying.

“Uh… uh…”

Tears quickly filled his large eyes and fell. It was a sight that never got boring no matter how many times he saw it. Lee Wooyeon held Inseop and comforted him.

“What, crying when we haven’t even done it properly?”

“Ah… this is just…”

Inseop quickly wiped away his tears with his hands. Then he hugged Lee Wooyeon and kissed his cheek, saying, “I like you.” His small lips brushed against the man’s cheek and retreated. He knew what it meant.

“You can do it.”

Inseop’s attempt was still clumsy and insignificant. Lee Wooyeon suppressed a sigh.

“Sorry. You must be tired after work, but I only think about myself…”

When Lee Wooyeon didn’t react, Inseop quickly apologized. Lee Wooyeon looked down at Inseop.

It wasn’t just something he said. Even after dating for several years and now living together, Inseop still treated him like an ordinary person. Encountering his own abnormality had hurt him so many times.

Lee Wooyeon bent down and briefly kissed Inseop, who was apologetic and unsure of what to do.

“If wanting to have s*x with me is selfish, then I’m just a fucking bastard.”

“…  Wooyeon.”

“Be selfish.”

Lee Wooyeon took Inseop’s hand and placed it under his own. Gripping the hard-swollen penis with a tip starting to moisten, Lee Wooyeon narrowed his eyes.

“So, f**k, use your hand on my dick… F**k.”

“Yes?”

Before Inseop could even ask how to handle his hand to commit the act, Lee Wooyeon began moving Inseop’s hand over his genitals. It was so large that it was difficult to hold with one hand, and Inseop struggled to keep up as Lee Wooyeon violently moved his hips.

“Ha… Inseop…”

An excited voice called Inseop’s name. Inseop hesitated for a moment and then answered, “Yes.” A smile flashed across Lee Wooyeon’s eyes. The eyes where laughter lingered for a moment soon filled with a strong desire.

Lee Wooyeon started tapping the tip against Inseop’s palm. Inseop tried to hold on with his arms to avoid being pushed away, but he missed the cock several times.

“Do it like this.”

Lee Wooyeon had Inseop place his hand between his thighs. Then he rubbed it like crazy, as if he was inserting his penis there. When Lee Wooyeon’s cock reached the inside of his thigh and touched his own, Inseop’s body trembled.

Lee Wooyeon moved his waist as if masturbating against Inseop’s body. Inseop’s soft palms were wet with the thick pre-cum that the man had spilled.

“F**k, Inseop. Ha…”

An excited voice called Inseop again. Inseop looked up at Lee Wooyeon’s face. A neat and handsome man was lusting after him fiercely. His body trembled. Lee Wooyeon keenly noticed the change, and a slanted smile appeared on his lips.

“Holding a man’s cock with your hand… F**k, so dirty…”

Lee Wooyeon pounded his waist like crazy. He asked Inseop to r*pe his dick with his hands, but no one could see that it was Inseop’s hands that were being violated.

“Good?”

“Ha… Yes.”

Inseop barely answered. His hard flesh was stabbing him fiercely. His palms were sore. Still, it was good. It was painful, exhausting, and sometimes scary, but Inseop loved every sensation the man gave him.

“…Good. Wooyeon, because it’s good…”

Lee Wooyeon’s smooth forehead was wrinkled. The man’s large body pressed down on Inseop and moved his waist.

“Tsk…”

Soon, Inseop’s palms were drenched with hot semen. As if Lee Wooyeon wasn’t satisfied even after ejaculating, he rubbed his genitals against Inseop’s palm several more times.

After catching his breath, Lee Wooyeon stood up. Inseop’s hands and even his thighs were covered in semen. A cruel desire for conquest flashed in the man’s eyes as he saw the scene. If possible, he wanted to saturate Inseop’s entire body with his semen.

“Uh…”

Inseop hesitantly raised his hand. His semen dripped down his fingers. Inseop, who hesitated before wiping it on the sheet, carefully asked Lee Wooyeon.

“… This…”

Lee Wooyeon enjoyed ejaculating onto Inseop’s body. Whenever Inseop tried to wipe away the semen, Lee Wooyeon leisurely watched the scene, saying he’d do it himself. Inseop didn’t know what to do each time but quietly waited as he was told.

Seeing the guy who couldn’t even masturbate properly look at him while offering his semen-soaked palm, Lee Wooyeon felt a cruel sense of satisfaction that was hard to put into words. Lee Wooyeon placed his hand over Inseop’s palm and thrust his genitals into it.

“Ah…!”

Inseop’s thin body jumped up at the cock that was inserted without warning. Lee Wooyeon kissed Inseop’s forehead and comforted him, urging him to relax.

“…Yes.”

Inseop nodded.

S*x with Inseop was demanding. It wasn’t easy to insert, and even afterward, calming down the scared Inseop took time. It had been the same for years. Even after s*x, Lee Wooyeon always handled the aftermath—removing the semen, washing Inseop’s body, massaging his arms and legs, and soothing the slightly feverish Inseop to sleep.

“Slowly… I’m going to move.”

He whispered with his eyes lowered, suppressing the urge to cling to Inseop like a dog in heat.

“…Please kiss me.”

Inseop asked Lee Wooyeon in a voice choked with tears. Inseop loved kissing. When s*x was scary or difficult, he always requested a kiss. After realizing it was a form of affectionate play, there were times when he pretended not to hear.

“I want to kiss.”

He was asking again so soon.

“You’re so damn pretty.”

Lee Wooyeon kissed Inseop and rubbed his cock, gradually expanding the inside. Despite Inseop trembling, he kissed Lee Wooyeon as if clinging to him. Lee Wooyeon inserted slowly, soothing Inseop to prevent him from crying.

Every time, everything with Choi Inseop was inefficient. Lee Wooyeon disliked wasting time on pointless things. Because all actions and outcomes were accomplished within a plausible formula. But Choi Inseop was different. Lee Wooyeon enjoyed everything with him enough to endure the hassle, or even to revel in the messy and incomprehensible process itself.

“Inseop… ha… good.”

“I like it too.”

Inseop responded to Lee Wooyeon’s excited murmuring. Veins stood out on Lee Wooyeon’s hand as he held Inseop’s hand. He jerked and lifted his waist. An ecstatic sensation surged to the tip of his head.

“…I like you.”

Inseop confessed his feelings through tearful sobs. He looked into Lee Wooyeon’s big eyes. A wild excitement rose that heated his throat.

“…Wooyeon… ah. Hmm… like. I like you.”

He would have returned to Korea tomorrow. However, Lee Wooyeon was completely aroused by Inseop’s irrational affection, saying he missed him and came all this way.

“…Was this what you wanted to do?”

“Yes?”

“You wanted to have s*x with me… Are you spreading your legs for me, coming all this way?”

“…Yes.”

Inseop nodded.

“…I wanted to see Wooyeon.”

There was no need for further words. Lee Wooyeon rushed at him like an animal in heat, without any sense of reason. It was s*x like they were breeding. Lee Wooyeon’s strong thighs spread Inseop’s legs and entered him. His slender body shook violently. Each time he fucked underneath, Inseop cried and clung to Lee Wooyeon. Lee Wooyeon grasped Inseop’s hands tightly as if binding him and drove his genitals into him as if nailing them. He wanted to belong to Inseop somehow, to merge with him, even if only a little… Even just a little was good.

“…Wooyeon.”

Inseop was looking up at him. He felt like he was always being pierced by big eyes with no intention.

“I love you.”

Lee Wooyeon’s jaw clenched firmly. The desperate and fierce intercourse continued. He felt like he was going to die. Rough excitement tore through his muscles and split his breath.

“…Inseop… Inseop…”

In response to the voice calling him, Inseop nodded his head several times as if in response.

A shy, small gesture… So incredibly lovely.

Lee Wooyeon hugged Inseop’s body as if it might break and moved his waist. His strong thigh muscles tensed as he thrust like nailing at a protruding point. He ejaculated with a hot semen into the narrow hole, and soon after, Inseop also reached climax. Lee Wooyeon enjoyed the feeling of his lower abdomen becoming lukewarm.

“…Ha… Ha…”

His heated gaze swept over Inseop’s white face. Inseop, who was breathing heavily, noticed the gaze and smiled softly.

Facing that round smile without a single blemish, he realized once again.

Ah, it had to be like this, no doubt.

Lee Wooyeon buried his face in the back of Inseop’s neck. After inhaling the soft scent deeply, he too was able to smile softly.

***

“What did you say?”

Lee Wooyeon abruptly sat up on the bed.

After having s*x, they showered together, laid in bed, and talked about this and that. Lee Wooyeon jokingly asked how much Inseop wanted to see his face to come all the way here.

‘Is my face that great? What’s so appealing about it? My eyes? Nose? Lips?’

Normally, Inseop would have blushed and hesitated, then said something like, ‘Everything,’ after a while of stammering. But this time, he hesitated for a long time and said,’Yes’

“Are you in your right mind now? And here, f**k.”

Lee Wooyeon swept his hair back. Uncontained, fierce emotions shimmered in his eyes.

“What are you doing? Get up.”

“Wooyeon, please…”

“We’re going to the hospital, right away…”

Inseop grabbed Lee Wooyeon’s hand.

“If you’re going to say it’s okay, just keep quiet. I won’t let it slide with just those words.”

Inseop faintly smiled.

“It’s not okay.”

“…”

“It’s not okay at all. Not one bit.”

Inseop held onto Lee Wooyeon’s hand and lowered his head.

“I’m sorry for lying. I intended to deceive… I intentionally deceived you. I just… wanted to believe it was okay.”

“Don’t you see the reports? Don’t just think it’s always going to be bad.”

It was a playful voice, not even considering the thought that there would be any particular results from the test two months ago. In response to Lee Wooyeon’s smiling question, Inseop unintentionally replied, “I’m okay with that.”

“I’m sorry. I know I promised and broke it… I know I was wrong.”

Inseop trembled slightly, holding Lee Wooyeon’s hand tightly.

“I’m sorry. Wooyeon.”

“…No.”

Inseop shook his head.

“I’m sorry, Inseop.”

“…No.”

Tears that Inseop had barely managed to hold back fell silently from his large eyes. Lee Wooyeon frowned and bowed his head to meet Inseop’s eyes.

“Don’t cry. Okay?”

“…Yes.”

Inseop quickly nodded. Even so, tears continued to fall softly down his rounded cheeks. Lee Wooyeon embraced Inseop tightly.

“It’ll be okay.”

Lee Wooyeon murmured as he gently stroked Inseop’s back.

“It’ll be okay. It’ll get better. Don’t worry. I’ll help you however I can. Please…”

Words of comfort or plea, it was unclear, continued. Inseop nodded against Lee Wooyeon’s shoulder.

They lay back on the bed, holding each other silently for a long time.

“It’s hard to get used to.”

Inseop suddenly spoke up.

“It’s something I could get used to… but strangely, I’m scared every time.”

Lee Wooyeon tucked Inseop’s hair behind his ear and gestured softly. Inseop continued slowly.

“But when I was young, I often heard that it’s hard to live long, so I thought I might die someday…”

Inseop swallowed back his dry throat. He felt the intense gaze of the man hanging on him.

“…After the surgery, or rather, after meeting you, Wooyeon, I haven’t thought that way. I just vaguely believed things would be okay.”

Death was something others dealt with, as if they would live their whole lives, like ordinary people.

“I love you.”

At Inseop’s sudden confession, Lee Wooyeon swallowed hard.

“I love you. Really, I love you so much.”

He had waited in the hospital room for Lee Wooyeon to open the door and come in.

“So I came. Because I missed you, Wooyeon.”

If he could go back to that moment, Lee Wooyeon would hold Inseop’s hand and sit on a bench outside the hospital all night.

Lee Wooyeon hugged Inseop, kissed his forehead, and called softly, “Inseop…”

“Will you give me your heart?”

Inseop smiled faintly and lowered his head. Lee Wooyeon’s lips touched his forehead again.

“If you need it, I’ll give it to you. Anytime, just say the word.”

Even though it sounded absurdly grandiose, Inseop tried to smile as sincerely as possible.

“I’ll decline.”

Lee Wooyeon pressed Inseop’s lips lightly with his finger. Inseop lightly kissed it.

“Let’s go to the hospital as soon as we get to Korea.”

“Yes.”

“If it’s not okay, we can move to a bigger hospital in the U.S.”

“Yes, I’ll do that.”

Inseop obediently nodded.

“You’re pretty. And you listen well.”

In response to Lee Wooyeon’s praise, Inseop shyly lowered his gaze. Lee Wooyeon pulled Inseop closer, holding him tightly. Then he gently closed his eyes against Inseop’s chest.

‘You know what?’

‘…What?’

‘Inseop, even your heartbeat sounds pretty.’

‘……’

‘I’ve heard it occasionally.’

Wooyeon woke up in the middle of the night and leaned his face against Inseop’s heart area, knowing the fact that he did so for a while.

‘Thank you.’

Inseop mumbled a polite response, and Wooyeon smiled briefly.

‘Go back to sleep quickly. We have to leave early if we’re catching the morning flight tomorrow.’

‘Yes.’

Inseop closed his eyes. The warmth of the man wrapped around him like ivy. He no longer felt lonely, sad, or scared. Drifting off to sleep, Inseop quietly called out, ‘Wooyeon.’

‘Yeah.’

Wooyeon replied in a voice that didn’t feel like he was asleep at all.

‘…Let’s go together later. To that restaurant…’

‘Sure.’

Wooyeon affectionately replied to calm Inseop. Not long after, Inseop’s breathing became regular and gradually quieted down. The man’s large hand gently patted his back in sync with his heartbeat.

It was a quiet night.