Vol 5 Ch 12

“Ugh.”

His slender thighs, strained with effort, trembled violently. Lee Wooyeon’s eyebrows furrowed slightly.

“…Relax.”

“…Yes.”

Inseop clung to Lee Wooyeon’s arm and exhaled. However, as soon as he felt the sensation of something entering him below, his body tensed up again. Lee Wooyeon bit his lower lip gently.

“I’ll relax. I will, so just, hold on, …ah!”

Lee Wooyeon’s large hand grasped Inseop’s thigh and pushed in firmly. The entire length of his member was inserted into the barely open hole. Lee Wooyeon squinted his eyes and took a deep breath. Inseop blinked and finally managed to exhale.

“Are you doing this on purpose?”

“What?”

“Every time, when we do this, …like someone fucking for the first time, f**k.”

Lee Wooyeon muttered curses through his teeth as he moved his hips. Inseop’s slender body jumped as if it were bouncing.

“I’m not doing it on purpose…, ugh.”

“It’s your first time, isn’t it?”

Lee Wooyeon grasped Inseop’s thigh tightly and pulled his hips back, then thrust in again with a low growl.

“…What….”

Inseop blinked and asked. He could hardly understand half of Lee Wooyeon’s vulgar words, struggling to grasp their intent and meaning.

“It’s the first night, so it’s your first time.”

Lee Wooyeon asked. Inseop, not knowing what else to say, nodded.

“Right, …since it’s your first time with me, how does it feel?”

“What?”

“It’s your first time, isn’t it?”

Lee Wooyeon let out a low laugh and kissed Inseop’s shoulder. Inseop was bewildered. During s*x, Lee Wooyeon often did things he couldn’t understand. He would ask strange questions, demand answers from Inseop, make him say dirty words, and sometimes, while Inseop was crying, he would just watch him with a smile. The most incomprehensible thing was his lewd talk.

‘…Can’t you stop saying those things?’

One day, after a long and intense midday session, Inseop, his voice hoarse, said this. Lee Wooyeon, who was wiping Inseop’s body with a warm towel, asked what things?

‘Those, …vulgar words.’

‘Why?’

Lee Wooyeon asked with a genuinely puzzled look.

‘It’s embarrassing, …and it makes me lose focus….’

‘Ah. So, you want to focus on s*x but my talking distracts you?’

‘…Yes.’

Although that wasn’t entirely what he meant, Inseop answered quickly.

‘Got it.’

For some reason, Lee Wooyeon agreed readily, nodding his head. Inseop felt relieved. But that relief was shattered the next time they had s*x.

Lee Wooyeon had s*x without saying a word. Really, just s*x. Only s*x.

‘Wooyeon, …stop, …stop….’

Exhausted, Inseop pleaded, clinging to him, begging again and again, but Lee Wooyeon just moved his hips, smiling.

‘…Wooyeon, I’m tired. …Please, …Wooyeon….’

‘Don’t talk.’

‘What?’

‘You need to focus.’

Lee Wooyeon covered Inseop’s mouth and kept moving his hips. In the end, Inseop, crying hard, told him to do whatever he wanted.

‘I’m doing this because it feels too good. Words during s*x are mostly nonsense, so don’t mind them.’

Lee Wooyeon whispered this while kissing Inseop’s face, which was too tear-stained to see properly.

Mostly bullshit.

Keeping those words in mind, Inseop tried not to pay too much attention to what Lee Wooyeon said. He answered when asked, nodded when prompted. That was it.

“Damn. It’s my first time, so I’m loving it.”

Lee Wooyeon’s low voice carried a hint of laughter.

What should I do, what should I say? Should I just say I like it? He said words during s*x are mostly nonsense. …But somehow, today it feels like I shouldn’t.

While Inseop was contemplating, Lee Wooyeon thrust his hips powerfully again. Inseop’s big eyes blinked rapidly.

“I’m asking how you feel, f**k.”

“…I, I also….”

Lee Wooyeon thrust again. Inseop gasped.

“You also, what.”

“…I like it.”

Lee Wooyeon let out a low laugh. Inseop swallowed a sense of foreboding that ran down his spine. The foreboding was soon replaced by the heavy sensation invading below.

“Ugh….”

Inseop’s body stiffened. Lee Wooyeon looked down at him, biting his lower lip. The man’s gaze, soaked with glistening desire, swept over Inseop’s body as if it were devouring him. The sight of the man’s desire on the bed was inhuman. It was the moment when the beast, pretending to be human, shed its facade and revealed its true nature.

A large hand grabbed Inseop’s thigh roughly. The grip was strong enough to leave marks, but Inseop couldn’t even care. It was hard to breathe with the relentless thrusts below.

“…Do you like it?”

A rough voice asked as if it were a thorn. Inseop tried to say yes, but only a crushed breath came out of his mouth.

“Ha… ugh, …ugh….”

“I asked if you really like it, …not just saying it. f**k.”

Inseop finally realized that Lee Wooyeon’s words were different from usual.

“Having only done it with me, not knowing anything else.”

Lee Wooyeon’s words, muttered as if to himself, were tinged with anxiety. No one would believe it, but Inseop often saw him as a young boy. Every time the usually unshakable and confident Lee Wooyeon showed his uncertainty, Inseop felt a secret satisfaction he couldn’t share with anyone. It was an emotion closely tied to possessiveness.

Inseop embraced Lee Wooyeon’s neck.

“I like it….”

He kissed his lips, rubbed his cheek against his, and tightened his arms around him.

“I like it. …Having s*x with you, Wooyeon.”

He liked everything he did with Lee Wooyeon.

Every kiss, every touch, every time they had s*x, even though it was his first time and only with Lee Wooyeon, he knew he liked it. Every time their bare skin touched, his whole body would tremble, and when they kissed, his toes felt distant. When their eyes met, his throat tickled, and a hot flush surged through him. Every time those big hands caressed his body and that voice soaked in arousal called his name….

“I like it. Wooyeon.”

Inseop held onto Wooyeon’s arm and slowly moved his hips, confessing his honest feelings.

“It’s so good….”

…It drives me crazy.

The rest of his words were swallowed by their urgent, interlocking lips. Wooyeon sucked on Inseop’s lips as if he were a person desperately clinging to an oxygen tube deep under the sea.

“Me too, …I like it, …, ha.”

Wooyeon sucked on his lower lip, licked his tongue, and swallowed his saliva. It wasn’t the skilled and adept kiss seen on screens. The desperate, messy kisses felt incredibly good to Inseop.

Their tightly embraced bodies were soaked with heat.

Wooyeon moved his hips wildly while gripping Inseop’s thigh. His thick cock penetrated the barely opened hole.

“Ah…!”

Wooyeon grasped Inseop’s thigh, pulling back his hips before thrusting again. Each time, Inseop whimpered and moaned. Wooyeon silently watched Inseop’s reactions as he repeatedly thrust in and out.

“Huh… uht, …ah, …ugh.”

Inseop’s own dick began to slowly respond. Wooyeon’s jaw muscles tightened.

When he first heard that having s*x with someone you really liked brought emotional satisfaction, Wooyeon scoffed. He thought it was just mental gymnastics for those who lacked sexual function or confidence in their size.

S*x was simple. It was a physical act. That’s why he never paid attention to or got aroused by his partner’s reactions. Just putting it in, thrusting, and coming was enough. He didn’t consider emotional connection or intimacy.

But s*x with Choi Inseop was different.

“Ha…, uh…. Huh.”

Inseop was there, with a tear-streaked face, panting with his legs spread to accept him somehow, …Choi Inseop.

Wooyeon held Inseop’s body down and thrust in madly.

He liked it. He loved seeing Inseop’s reactions every time he penetrated him. The tearful moans, the gasping breaths, the trembling slender white body, the soft flesh under his palms, the taste when he sucked on his lips, the scent of sweat at the tip of his nose….

It felt like all his senses were being satisfied. But it wasn’t just that.

“Wooyeon…. Wooyeon…, …I like you.”

Even while sharing shallow kisses, Inseop earnestly confessed his feelings. It wasn’t anything grand. With lips pressed together, he simply said he liked him, in muffled words. And that made him so happy. His whole body shivered, and his nerves felt like they were burning.

S*x with Choi Inseop provided a fulfillment that went beyond physical pleasure. He couldn’t keep his mind straight.

“Ha…, …uht.”

“Uh…, mm, …uh.”

“Inseop…. …Inseop. Ha….”

When Wooyeon called his name, Inseop responded by tightening his embrace. His whole body’s cells reacted to that feeble strength.

“Inseop, f**k, …I like you …so much.”

“Me too, …Wooyeon. …Ah.”

He felt pierced by those innocent eyes. Sometimes, he felt like he was barely holding on to life, clinging to that small body.

“…I love you.”

Inseop whispered into Wooyeon’s ear. Wooyeon sucked on Inseop’s lips and moved his hips madly. Inseop climaxed. His belly was covered in semen, but Wooyeon didn’t notice. Inseop’s head hit the headboard with a thud. It was an out-of-body experience. He felt like he could die. No, he felt like he could die and be fine with it.

Wooyeon hugged Inseop’s body tightly as if he would crush him. His strong thighs tensed all at once and he climaxed deeply into the narrow hole. Inseop’s body trembled with the aftershocks of his own climax. Wooyeon kept moving his hips a few more times while sucking on Inseop’s lips. The remaining semen spurted out.

They remained embraced for a long time without saying a word. Wooyeon lifted his head and brushed Inseop’s sweat-drenched hair.

“Wooyeon, …I love you.”

Inseop mumbled a confession of love. These days, even without being prompted, Inseop was so honest with his feelings, and Wooyeon found him unbearably adorable.

“How much.”

“…What?”

“How much do you love me?”

“A lot, very much.”

“And how much is that very much?”

“The most in the world.”

“And how much is the most in the world?”

He asked with exaggerated persistence, something he never thought he would do, not even with a gun to his head.

“Oh… well….”

“Don’t give some vague answer. Hmm?”

Wooyeon teased, enjoying how Inseop always tried to give a sincere answer to his seemingly trivial questions.

Hmm, thinking for a moment, Inseop blinked his large eyes.

Why does that look so damn cute? Damn it, forget the answer, just….

“…As much as you like me, Wooyeon.”

“…”

At Inseop’s answer, Lee Wooyeon looked momentarily taken aback, then burst into laughter.

“Hahaha. What am I going to do if you like me that much? This is serious, Choi Inseop.”

Inseop giggled softly. Wooyeon pulled him into a tight embrace, inhaling deeply. The small, sweat-drenched warmth pressed against him.

As much as I like you.

With just that one sentence, he felt like all his sordid, dirty emotions were forgiven.

“Inseop.”

“Yes.”

Their eyes met.

The emptiness that seemed it could never be filled, now brimmed with emotion. Every time he saw that pale face, those kind eyes, heard his name called, felt his hand in his, …every moment Inseop existed, he felt it….

“I love you.”

He expressed the emotion he could now confidently declare.

Inseop’s eyes widened slightly at the simple, unembellished words. Tears quickly welled up in his large eyes.

“Why are you crying? Did I say something wrong?”

“No. …No….”

Inseop shook his head, burying his face in Wooyeon’s chest. Wooyeon embraced his back, kissing his sweat-dampened hair. They held each other, exchanging idle words, kissing whenever their eyes met, touching each other’s faces. It was a trivial, leisurely time. One that only the two of them could share.

“By the way, are we really okay like this?”

“What do you mean?”

“The wedding. The first night and all.”

It’s so mundane. Inseop laughed softly at Wooyeon’s playful comment. It was an innocent and lovely laugh.

“I’m fine with it.”

Inseop, after saying that, paused in thought, then asked.

“Is there something you want, Wooyeon?”

Wooyeon looked down at Inseop. He had never particularly wanted or wished for anything. Having something wouldn’t fill the void.

“Something you want to do, or something you want to have.”

Inseop’s large eyes kindly inquired. Wooyeon, staring at the one person he truly desired, burst into laughter.

“I’ll think about it.”

“Please, do tell me.”

Wooyeon embraced Inseop. A suffocating sense of fulfillment washed over him. It was a happy night, one that felt like the world could end right then and it would be okay.