NCBF Ch 45

It was cozy, warm, and… sweet. Even though he hadn’t actually tasted it, one might ask how a impression like “sweet” could come out, but in any case, he clearly felt sweetness. He felt dopamine pouring out to the point where it was so good his mind went blank.

Earlier, when he brought Yuwon to the hagwon and came back to this room to look at useless things like the difference between a friend and a lover, he was filled with worry and tension, but now that wasn’t the case. It was good. It was just really so good. Hyun Gyujin sat on his bed just like that and leaned his body back.

“…”

Seriously crazy. Is it okay to be this happy? In the black room, Yuwon’s face flickered against the faint, dark ceiling.

‘…What do I do? I came to like you even more.’

Ah, Jeong Yuwon is crazy, seriously. Turning his body at the sweet voice lingering in his ear, Hyun Gyujin pulled the pillow, hugged it tightly in his arms, and buried his face in it.

To think that Jeong Yuwon likes him—could there be a more incredible thing than this? His heart expanded wildly. How he came to like him, or how long they had been dating, no longer mattered to Hyun Gyujin in the slightest.

Every time Yuwon in front of his eyes smiled, spoke affectionate words, or touched him, the small ember of first love transferred from Yuwon grew in size so very easily.

Big enough that even after burning Hyun Gyujin’s entire heart to a cinder, it would not be extinguished.

∞ ∞ ∞

He kissed Yuwon. In a dream. Just like holding him in front of the door, he held him the whole time in the dream too, and at the end, he kissed him first. Tilting his head to bring their lips together, he felt Yuwon’s lips part, and just like that, he kissed him like crazy.

The problem, however, was that while he remembered kissing him, he couldn’t remember well how it felt at the time. Judging by his underwear that had become a mess when he woke up in the morning, it seemed to have been insanely good, but perhaps because he lacked real-life experience, that vividness didn’t connect after waking up from the dream.

In a word, it was a truly strange situation. He remembered kissing in the dream, and there was the reaction his body produced, but he couldn’t recall the feeling, making it a very strange thing that only made him feel more embarrassed to see the real-life Yuwon for no reason.

“Why do you keep reading my mood since this morning?”

“…Huh? Me?”

“Yeah. You’ve been doing that continuously since this morning. Do you have something to say?”

“Did I… do that? No, I didn’t….”

Looking at Hyun Gyujin who seemed to gloss over it, Yuwon, who narrowed his eyes as if suspicious, lightly poked his waist with a finger.

Flinching his body, Hyun Gyujin took the empty chocolate milk carton held in Yuwon’s hand and threw it in the trash bin. Seeing that his slightly brushed hand was cold, it seemed they had to go inside the school building now.

“You did something wrong, didn’t you?”

“No. I didn’t do anything wrong. Why would there be anything like that? Yesterday after eating ramen with you, I went straight home….”

When words came out that had no choice but to remind them of holding each other, he saw the pupils looking at him tremble. Looking at the shy Yuwon, Hyun Gyujin felt the inside of his heart grow hot again. He wanted to touch him again. He wanted to keep holding him like yesterday, and also, like the dream… he wanted to kiss him.

“…”

Perhaps because heat rose from his heart, even his eyes and head were all burning hot, and his fingertips felt like melting away. Checking the time, Hyun Gyujin confirmed that there were still 15 minutes left until 5th period and softly grabbed Yuwon’s hand.

“Let’s go.”

“Going in already?”

“Yeah. There’s not much time.”

“There’s still 15 minutes left, though….”

Caught by Hyun Gyujin, Yuwon quietly looked at the back of Hyun Gyujin, who entered the building with the cafeteria instead of the building with their classroom. Having moved all the classrooms, this side of the building was now only used for club activities or special activities, so most of the classrooms were completely empty.

Hyun Gyujin, who checked the empty classrooms like a man in a hurry, saw the nameplate reading ‘Counseling Room’ at the end of it and turned the door handle. Luckily it wasn’t locked, so the door opened easily. Hyun Gyujin first put half his body in to see that no one was there, then softly pulled Yuwon inside as well. Then he closed the door and even locked it.

“Why… here?”

“Can I hug you again?”

“…Huh?”

“I really feel like I’m going to die.”

Though surprised by the unexpected question, Yuwon soon nodded his head in permission. Because in truth, after touching Hyun Gyujin for a long while yesterday in a non-friendly sense, he had also thought about wanting to do that again the whole time. He felt embarrassed because it seemed like he was the only one having such thoughts continuously, but seeing Hyun Gyujin who seemed so anxious like this was, honestly… nice.

Simultaneously with the permission, his body was pushed back. It was the reason Hyun Gyujin had suddenly pounced. The basic force in that tall height and solid body was inherently different from his own. However, he was only slightly startled and felt no pain whatsoever. Being pushed back didn’t mean he hit the door or anything either. He just liked that the pleasant scent that had kept him tossing and turning until dawn came wafting in, and he just liked that two solid arms were tightly hugging him.

“Does it hurt by any chance? In case I hugged you too hard.”

“…It doesn’t hurt.”

“Then that’s a relief.”

Along with the words that it was a relief, he felt Hyun Gyujin’s breath tumble down all at once. Hyun Gyujin, who was super tall, exceptionally strong, and good at fighting so that he seemed to fear nothing, acting as if he didn’t know what to do while holding him was cute. It was a first for him too, but it must be a first for Hyun Gyujin as well, so just as he was wandering and flustered, Hyun Gyujin was likewise probably wandering.

Yuwon quietly raised his arms and tightly held Hyun Gyujin’s waist in return, just like yesterday. As if to let him know that he found his way well so that Hyun Gyujin wouldn’t wander too much.

“I dreamed of kissing you yesterday.”

A muffled voice was heard from the nape of his neck. It was definitely an unclear sound because his lips were pressed against him, but Yuwon understood it all too well. Yuwon, momentarily startled, pushed Hyun Gyujin’s shoulders away.

“…If you say… weird things, I’m going to go.”

“Why push me away? Come here.”

Approaching Yuwon again, Hyun Gyujin trapped Yuwon inside his two arms. As the inside of his embrace filled up again, a warm air spread. Wouldn’t a combination of warm sunlight and cozy-looking cloud scent smell like this warm scent? Hyun Gyujin, who smiled at the feeling of Yuwon’s soft hair brushing the tip of his nose, lowered his head further and buried his face in his shoulder.

“It’s true.”

“…Again….”

“Did I want to kiss you?”

“…”

“But what’s funny is that I definitely did it. But maybe because I haven’t actually done it, I can’t remember that feeling. Though it seems like it felt fucking good for sure.”

Strength went into the arms of Hyun Gyujin as he said those words. Though it didn’t hurt, when he slapped his arms repeatedly in a situation where he was unable to budge at all, he felt the strength ease slightly from his arms again. Hyun Gyujin, who didn’t let go and only eased his strength slightly, was absurd, yet honestly, he liked him for it.

Yuwon merely bit his lips repeatedly with his chin resting on Hyun Gyujin’s shoulder. Though being held was embarrassing, still, it was a great relief that his face didn’t have to be seen. Heat was rising and he was thoroughly embarrassed, so he thought he must be making a very strange face right now.

“…Have you really never done it once?”

“What are you talking about? Of course not. You haven’t done it either.”

Recalling the times when Hyun Gyujin appeared in his dreams every day, Yuwon laughed softly. Every single day, all night long, sticking his lips mwah, mwah and pulling them away—it was seriously no joke.

“What’s this? Have you done it?”

Hyun Gyujin, who was waiting for Yuwon’s answer, pulled his body away. Yuwon, who missed the timing to answer while recalling the dreams where he kissed Hyun Gyujin a lot, let out an ah… sound and made eye contact with Hyun Gyujin. Hyun Gyujin was so serious to the point where Yuwon wondered, Was there a time he made such a serious face? That face was cute and looked even handsomer, to the point where he wanted to play a joke for no reason.

“Why aren’t you answering? Did you really kiss someone? When? With whom? You haven’t even dated anyone.”

“Yeah, I haven’t dated anyone.”

“What’s this? Then without dating, did you kiss behind my back?”

Kissing behind his back. The wording was so strange that laughter came out. Looking at Hyun Gyujin who looked increasingly more serious at him laughing, Yuwon tilted his head.

“Then of course I’d kiss behind your back…. Do I tell you that I’m going to kiss and then do it? Isn’t that stranger?”

“…Wow, so you really did do it.”

“No, I didn’t.”