NANOM Ch 41

‘Do you like it? Teacher.’

A sweet voice tickles my ear. The owner of the voice that softly opens up my chest is, of course, Jihyuk.

The moment I meet his smiling face, his eyes crinkling, a thumping vibration fills my chest. It felt as if Jihyuk had put his hand inside my chest and was holding and kneading my heart.

‘I want to touch you, Teacher.’

Ah, wait a moment….

‘Being so lewd like this. Why won’t you let me touch you.’

The stimulation was too much. He was just lightly stroking my stomach and chest, but why did it feel so ticklish? I tried to twist my body to get away, but the more I did, the more Jihyuk’s large hand followed me. Jihyuk’s hand, large and dry and hot.

My lower abdomen trembled. My brow furrowed on its own. My body, which had become completely hot like an iron, vibrated with a shiver at that moment. Gasp, it was the moment I let out a heated, ragged breath. Flinch, my lower body shuddered.

“…Huh?”

At the same time, the sight of Jihyuk that had been filling my vision disappeared. What poured into my eyes was a fierce, white cascade of sunlight. And, the sound of my mother’s voice.

“Jeonghyun… are you awake?”

“Ah… Ye-yes!”

I shot up in a panic. Goosebumps ran all over my body. I just could not believe this situation.

“Hurry up and wash… you need to eat breakfast.”

“Yes, I’ll, I’ll be there!”

After urgently answering my mother, I slowly lifted the blanket with a look of disbelief. The thing that had been standing stiffly had already finished its business and was on the verge of going soft. The feeling of wet pants and the stickiness inside my underwear.

“…Ha… Crazy….”

A hollow laugh escaped me. Does this even make sense? It is not like I am a teenager in the prime of his youth.

“How absurd….”

I muttered helplessly, but that does not undo the fact that I had a wet dream about Jihyuk.

To be honest… it had been building up. I could not deny that. We had not done it properly even once since the first time we mixed our bodies at Jihyuk’s house. Midterm exams were just around the corner, so I had to be busy preparing for them, and I had to juggle tutoring and studying for my certification as well.

Naturally, Jihyuk had voiced his frustration several times in a whining tone. I understood that he was pent up since I had not let him properly touch me since then, but it could not be helped. That time, we had stayed up all night and still spent the entire time until lunch doing just that. If I had let Jihyuk have his way with my body, it was obvious he would go at it all day long again, completely draining my stamina.

In the end, it feels like just yesterday that I told Jihyuk to wait, attaching a childish and embarrassing condition like ‘if you do well on your midterms’… but what am I supposed to do if I am the one acting like this.

“Haa….”

My head felt fuzzy from the absurd situation, but I had to get a grip quickly. Today was a day I had classes starting in the morning. I had to hurry up, get ready, and leave.

I kicked off the blanket and changed my underwear and pants first. It felt unpleasant, but I had no choice since my mother was in the kitchen. I tiptoed to the bathroom, hurriedly washed my underwear and pants in the sink, quickly washed my face, and came out to start preparing breakfast.
Since I was in a hurry, I simply prepared soy sauce and egg rice and added the bean sprout soup and cucumber salad I had made yesterday. It would be one thing if I were alone, but with my mother here, I tended to pay more attention to the menu than before.

“I’m leaving!”

“Okay. Our… Jeonghyun, have a good day.”

I scarfed down breakfast and ran outside. As always, I headed for the park where I meet Jihyuk every day. My heart started to pound as I saw the sedan parked in its usual spot. Normally, it was because of feelings like simple gladness and excitement, but today, it was a little different.

How am I supposed to see Jihyuk’s face like this….

“You’re here?”

Unaware of my inner turmoil, Jihyuk, who had been waiting in the driver’s seat, rolled down the window and smiled dazzlingly. His neatly styled hair and the clean jeans and white shirt he was wearing suited his role as today’s presenter very well. Not overdone, but not too casual either.

“Uh-huh. …Hi. Let’s go quickly.”

But this was no time to be admiring Jihyuk’s attire. I absolutely, under no circumstances, could let any sign of this show. The quick-witted Jihyuk would surely interrogate me until I told him. If he found out what happened last night, then… it was obvious what would happen next.

Sure enough. As soon as I got in the car, Jihyuk scanned my face like a ghost. He had a suspicious expression.

“…We’re not even that late, why are you in such a hurry?”

“It’s not, that… I wanted to get there quickly, and go over… the materials for your presentation one more time.”

“I see.”

In the end, I even took out the materials for today’s presentation from my bag. As I silently fixed my gaze on them and pretended to read, Jihyuk thankfully started the car without another word.

Even while I struggled to focus on the materials, my gaze kept sneaking glances to the side. Perhaps because of the embarrassing thing that happened this morning, Jihyuk’s presence as he drove next to me was exceptionally on my mind today. Things like the usual scent of his cologne and his rolled-up sleeves and the forearms revealed beneath them.

I let out a sigh, hidden from Jihyuk. Anyway, I have no idea what is going on with me since this morning. Since I started attending school with Jihyuk, my once bland school life has become new and tumultuous every day. The feeling was not bad, but today felt even more dynamic than usual.

📖

“…Next, the presenter from Group 3, please come up.”

Jihyuk, who was sitting next to me, slowly rose to his feet. Sitting in the back of the large, tiered lecture hall, he descended toward the front with a relaxed gait. Naturally, gazes were drawn to him, and I could feel a collective murmur.

“Wow, damn… look at his visuals. Isn’t he a real celebrity?”

“His body… it seems to get better every time I see it. Doesn’t he look like a martial artist? Or maybe a soccer player. He’s so freaking cool, for real.”

“The welfare of this class is the best because of him. For some reason, I just wanted to understand Western culture.”

The whispers and snickers as they looked at Jihyuk. There was no way he could not hear the small sounds coming from all directions, yet there was no sign of wavering in Jihyuk’s walk or expression. Then again, Jihyuk was probably used to such stares.

Am I the only one who is needlessly bothered? I tried my best to pretend I did not hear and fixed my gaze only on the front.

It was not like it was the first or second time I had experienced this. From the very first day of the semester, Jihyuk’s presence was so great that it instantly captivated the attention of all the students filling this wide lecture hall. To the point where I, who was always stuck to his side, felt a little embarrassed.

Right now was the time for ‘Understanding Western Culture,’ the only elective course that Jihyuk and I were taking together. On the first day of the semester, we had drawn lots to form teams for a project, and surprisingly, I ended up in the same group as Jihyuk. Actually, I had drawn a 3 and Jihyuk had drawn a 1, but somehow, Jihyuk had come back with a smiling face, having swapped for the paper with a 3 on it.

And today was the day each group was to present on their assigned topic. There were five members in our group, and my role was to compile the materials researched by the group members and create the presentation slides. Jihyuk was in charge of presenting.

To be honest, I am not a fan of this kind of group project. I wonder if there is anyone who can say they enjoy it. If you get good group members, you can get through it without a hitch, but on the other hand, if you meet a teammate who ghosts you, makes all sorts of excuses to delay the assignment, or decides to just give up on the course itself, it becomes a headache.

And up until now, I have not had very good luck with teammates. When that happened, I, who aims for perfection in all my subjects, would end up filling the hole left by that teammate. After all, I was the one who had something to lose.

However, this project was unusually comfortable. To be precise, it was because ever since I took on the position of compiling the materials, Jihyuk had been putting pressure on the team members with a smile. If they were even slightly late, he would persistently contact them, and after that, the materials would miraculously come in on time. It was a kind of comfort I had never felt throughout my school life.

“Good morning. I am Woo Jihyuk, the presenter for Group 3. I will now begin our group’s presentation on the topic of ‘The Renaissance and the Modern Spirit.’”

Come to think of it, this is the first time I am seeing Jihyuk present. Unconsciously, I held my breath and watched Jihyuk with interested eyes.

This different side of Jihyuk, unlike how he is with me, had a power that kept drawing my gaze. His low voice, though not particularly forceful, naturally commanded the audience. Did he receive separate training for public speaking? Or perhaps it was something like an innate dignity.

Frankly, because Jihyuk was always playing around with a somewhat delinquent look on his face, I had wondered if he could even present properly, but my worries were nothing more than groundless fears. He was now captivating the attention of even the students who had been dozing off or doing other things until now.
Seeing Jihyuk’s unexpectedly proper posture and his calm delivery of the presentation, it finally hit me that he was already learning his father’s company’s business little by little. Perhaps when he enters the workforce in the future, he might be much more polished than me.

“…That is all. Thank you.”

As Jihyuk, who had finished his presentation, bowed his head deeply, a round of applause of unprecedented size erupted. The professor approached and took the microphone from him.

“Any questions? If you have any, please ask.”

“Ah, me. About the part on the rediscovery of classicism earlier, the content on neoclassicism. Would that be the same as the Greek Revival movement that occurred in the 19th century?”

A student raised their hand and threw a question. It was a sharper question than expected, and I held my breath and looked at Jihyuk. Would Jihyuk be able to answer? It was a supplementary detail that I had considered putting in the presentation but ended up cutting out. However, Jihyuk offered a perfect answer in a calm voice.

“It is difficult to say it is completely the same as the Greek Revival movement. This is because most of the works that speak of the Greek spirit actually originated from late Hellenistic and Roman reproductions.”

“Oh, very good.”

As if echoing my own heart that wanted to applaud, the professor’s pleased praise poured out. I let out a sigh of relief and looked at him with affectionate eyes. Just then, he turned his gaze toward me, and as our eyes met, Jihyuk gave me a slight eye-smile.

‘Wha-what… all of a sudden.’

Is he doing that on purpose to fluster me? Looking at Jihyuk’s handsome face sending a smile only to me, it feels like Jihyuk is kneading my heart at will, just like in the dream. I hastily whipped my head away, but my earlobes were already starting to turn red for no reason. While I was fidgeting with my earlobes and feigning indifference, Jihyuk was returning to his seat.

“Did I do well?”

Jihyuk, sitting down next to me, came closer and whispered in a voice full of laughter. The familiar scent of his cologne and the low timbre that tickled my ear. My whole body instinctively flinched. To hide my flustered state, I deliberately replied coolly in a sulky voice.

“…You did, well… so… move away a little.”

“That’s so mean. Praise me a little.”

He knows all too well that I am embarrassed right now. With a playful look already dawning on his face, he deliberately thrusts his face forward as if acting cute, trying to get under my lowered head. I could not stand it anymore and pushed Jihyuk’s face away with my hand. If my face turns red, it will be a real disaster.

“Ah, fine. Later… I’ll do it later, so please… get away.”

“You promised.”

Only after getting that promise did Jihyuk docilely move away, and I let out a hot sigh internally. I hurriedly picked up my writing utensil and started to take notes on the presentation from Group 4 that had already begun, jotting down whatever I could. The content was already all in the book, so there was no real need to go that far… but I had to calm down somehow. Watching me, Jihyuk let out a small laugh.

Unlike a moment ago, the tone of the Group 4 presenter was boring and slow. The attention of the students, who had been listening with sparkling eyes when Jihyuk was presenting, started to crumble one by one. The lecture hall once again became a little noisy. It was to the point where the professor had to scold them, saying, “Let’s all try to focus.”

“…But I wonder if he has a girlfriend?”

At that moment, a thin, whispering voice clearly entered my ears. My head turned without me realizing it. The owner of the voice happened to be Park Sora, a classmate from my department. Moreover, she was a girl the other kids called the ‘goddess of the department,’ incredibly pretty and smart, and famous even in other departments.

Without realizing it, all my attention shifted in that direction. Even without listening closely, I had a feeling I knew who ‘he’ was that those girls were talking about. I snuck a glance at Jihyuk, but he seemed not to have heard, sitting at a slight angle and feigning indifference as he messaged someone on his phone.

“I bet he …doesn’t he?”

“You think so? …Maybe I’ll try….”

Because of the noise from the chatter around us, I could not hear exactly what the girls were saying. But strangely, from that point on, my heart started to pound in an unpleasant way. I do not know why I am feeling so strange when I do not even know for sure what Sora is planning to do.

In this way, the presentations continued until Group 5 was finished. At the professor’s gentle voice, who was about to call out the key points in preparation for the upcoming midterm exams, I straightened my back which had been about to slouch. With sharpened eyes, I frantically marked up my book.

“Alright, that will conclude today’s class.”

“Thank you.”

The class was over. Only then did I release the tension from my shoulders and stretch. The group members approached one by one, looked at Jihyuk, and told him he did a good job on the presentation. After warmly exchanging greetings and sending all the group members off, the lecture hall was almost empty.

“Are you going to study?”

“Yeah. This stuff today… I need to organize it all.”

“Let’s do it at the officetel.”

Jihyuk gestured with his chin lightly, as if it were the most natural thing. For a moment, my gaze trembled slightly.

Lately, I had been alternating between the library and the officetel with Jihyuk, so as he said, there was no problem with going there itself. Not only that, but as Jihyuk had suggested, I had also used it a few times by myself when our schedules did not match. It was truly a very comfortable and efficient place.

But not today. I had an intuitive feeling. If I were alone with Jihyuk in such a closed-off space… I might give away what happened this morning with my entire body. I shook my head back and forth and refused with a roundabout expression.

“Le-let’s do it here.”

“Why?”

“Just… Uh, I suddenly feel too lazy to move… can’t we just… do a little here before we go?”

“Alright. Then I’ll go buy coffee. You can sit and start first.”

“Let’s go together.”

“Just stay seated. I’ll be right back.”

Thankfully, Jihyuk accepted my suggestion without making a big deal of it. It might have been because there were only a few people left in the spacious lecture hall. Jihyuk hated being in places crowded with kids. And the few kids that were left were far off in the front, so there was nothing to be a bother.

Jihyuk, who had gone down to the first floor of the building, soon returned with coffee.

“Here.”

“Thanks. I’ll… drink it well.”

The cool coffee Jihyuk bought for me cleared my head for a moment. Jihyuk sat down next to me again, and we took out our major textbooks from our bags side by side.

Unlike when he was feigning indifference with a bored expression after the presentation, Jihyuk, with his major subject textbook open, now wore an endlessly serious expression. His gaze as he read down the English text without hesitation was sharp. The tip of the writing utensil held in his thick fingers produced vigorous handwriting that flowed swish swish onto the paper.

‘…Get a grip.’

Realizing that I had been unknowingly staring blankly at him studying, I quickly turned my gaze away. It was the moment I was about to really try and focus on my book.

The closed door to the lecture hall opened again. I lifted my gaze in that direction without thinking and my eyes widened. Park Sora was walking this way, holding a coffee. Come to think of it, her belongings were still on her desk, so she must have left her bag to go buy coffee.

No way. She is not coming towards us, is she? She is probably just coming to get her bag. I desperately hoped so, recalling how she had shown interest in Jihyuk earlier, but my ominous premonition came true. Sora, who had approached us, opened her mouth with a vibrant voice.

“Hi. Jeonghyun.”

“Huh? …Oh, hi, Sora.”

Honestly, I did not think she would know my name. We were in the same department, but we had never really talked… Sora, who had kindly greeted me first, smiled slyly and gestured towards Jihyuk with her eyes.

“By any chance, is this person… a junior you know? It seems like he’s using formal speech with you.”

“Huh? Uh….”

I was about to answer yes without thinking, but I suddenly remembered the time Jihyuk’s feelings were deeply hurt when I had carelessly used the title ‘just a junior I know.’ I quickly shook my head.

“No. He’s a close junior. A really… close junior.”

“Oh? Oh, oh. I see.”

Thankfully, as if he noticed my effort, I heard Jihyuk let out a small laugh from beside me. He seemed to feel no particular emotion even when a stranger suddenly approached and asked about him. Sora smiled slightly and this time, turned her gaze to Jihyuk.

“Hello. I’m a classmate of Jeonghyun’s from the same department.”

“Ah, sunbae-nim. Hello.”

Slowly turning his gaze to meet Sora’s, Jihyuk smiled, his eyes crinkling lightly. It was a completely different attitude from how he treated Woojae or the classmate we had met before.

Jihyuk’s thick, low voice was so sweet that even to my ears, it sounded like something was melting. Seeing Sora’s face begin to lightly flush, I could tell she was having the same impression as I was.

“Um… by any chance, do you have a girlfriend? If not, I was wondering if I could get your number.”

However, Sora was no less composed than Jihyuk. Honestly, my first thought upon seeing Sora so boldly state her business, even with me right next to them, was that she was amazing. How can she speak so clearly like that? To someone she is talking to for the first time.

But apart from that impression, my mood simultaneously plummeted to rock bottom. Even from my perspective, Sora was perfect. Beautiful, studies well, and is sharp and clear-spoken. There was a rumor that a whole truckload of classmates had confessed to Sora and been rejected. It was to the point that even I, who am clueless about such gossip, knew about it. And yet, a girl like that was confessing to Jihyuk.

After hearing Sora’s words, Jihyuk rolled his eyes for a moment, then opened his mouth, saying, “Hmm.”

“Ah, I’m sorry, sunbae-nim. I have a partner.”

And then he smiles dazzlingly. So brightly that it could make a person’s insides churn. Looking at Jihyuk’s face like that, Sora, who had held her breath for a moment, finally spoke.

“Ah… I see. Okay. Bye, Jeonghyun.”

“Uh, oh… Bye.”

Although there was a degree of surprise and embarrassment, Sora turned away with composure. I, who had been fumbling beside her, also exchanged goodbyes in a fluster. Watching Sora’s back as she immediately packed her bag and left the lecture hall, a sigh escaped me for no reason. For some reason, I feel very unsettled.

“Let’s go for dinner after we finish this. You have tutoring again tomorrow and you’re busy.”

“…Should we.”

For some reason I do not know, I am this unsettled, but Jihyuk himself seems to be completely fine. He opens his book with an ordinary expression and picks up his pen again. It was my pen that he had taken from me last time.

A sigh escaped me on its own. Right, there is actually no reason to be unsettled. If Jihyuk had given Sora his number in front of me, that… that would be a very unsettling and depressing matter, but did he not reject her sharply right in front of my eyes? If that is the case, then that should be the end of it. Why on earth am I in such a bad mood?

I should just study. I cannot lose focus by sinking into useless thoughts. I picked up the pen I had put down again, and steeled my heart as well. This too was a pen that Jihyuk had arbitrarily swapped with mine.

Soon after, the pen started to make a swish swish sound as it brushed against the paper. I tried hard to concentrate, forcibly pushing out the thoughts that would pop up in my head from time to time. My strangely turbulent mood soon subsided as I mechanically crammed texts and numbers into my head.

And yet, the subtle melancholy lying at the bottom of it all showed no sign of getting better. It was no use even when I tried taking deep breaths or deliberately picking out more difficult problems and solving a few.

‘Haa….’

Why on earth am I in such a bad mood? I would rather not know the reason. But the bigger problem was that I knew all too well the reason why my mood had soured.

It was because Sora, who had approached Jihyuk a moment ago and naturally asked for his number, had looked excessively good with Jihyuk. Also, I might have been very envious of things like her liveliness and confidence. Because those were aspects I could never have.

‘…I don’t know.’

A sigh burst out of my mouth on its own. Jihyuk had always said that I was his first man, so if I had not been around…. Would Jihyuk be talking with Sora for longer right about now?

Of course, knowing Jihyuk’s obsession and affection for me, I was well aware that the thought I was having now was a useless what-if. And yet, the image of Sora confessing so confidently earlier kept coming to mind. I could not do anything about the way my heart kept shrinking in response.

I think I should stop here for today. I let out a deep sigh and was just about to finally put down my pen.

“Teacher.”

“…Huh?”

My body instantly shot upright at the gentle voice that suddenly came from beside me.

“The thing we were supposed to do earlier. Aren’t you going to do it for me?”

“What? Do what? He-here? Are you crazy, there are other people here…!”

I looked around in horror. But then, Jihyuk’s loud laughter erupted.

“There’s no one here. They all left a while ago, didn’t you know?”

“Huh? Oh… I didn’t… I didn’t know.”

“What on earth were you imagining to be so surprised?”

My words came out stuttering on their own. I was so caught up in my own thoughts and trying so hard to focus on the book to avoid them that I did not even notice who was leaving. And sure enough, just as Jihyuk said, the two of us were the only ones left in the wide lecture hall.

Smiling like a troublemaker, Jihyuk poked my dumbfounded face with his hand.

“You were having dirty thoughts, weren’t you. Kim Jeonghyun.”

“Wha-what are you talking about. Having dirty thoughts at school, of all places…!”

“It’s written all over your face, though?”

His large palm slowly rubbed my cheek. Like dry earth absorbing water, the hot body heat familiarly seeped into my face. For a moment, my chest churned again. Rather than a pleasant, heart-fluttering excitement, it felt like a part of the heartache I had been suffering from just popped out. That is why, without realizing it, I abruptly slapped Jihyuk’s hand away.

“St-stop it. …Don’t do this at school.”

“Hmm.”

Jihyuk, letting out a languid hum, furrowed his eyebrows slightly. It was a displeased expression.

“What’s wrong? What is it because of.”

“…What about me.”

“You’re suddenly in a bad mood.”

Of course, there was no way Jihyuk would not notice. Jihyuk is always very sensitive to my moods and condition. If that is the case… does he also know why I am suddenly acting like this? When my thoughts reached that point, I suddenly felt so embarrassed it was nauseating.

I must seem pathetic. I am several years older than Jihyuk, too. Besides, Jihyuk had cleanly rejected Sora right in front of my eyes. Jihyuk did everything he could, so what more could I ask for.

It feels like I am trying to restrain Jihyuk too much. What would Jihyuk say if he noticed this feeling? He would probably find it absurd. He might even find me frustrating for acting this way.

If Jihyuk were to say, ‘Who are you to act like that,’ I would have nothing to say. Of course, just because we had not put a name to our relationship did not mean that what Jihyuk and I had was by any means casual. But even so, do I really have the right to care about and get sulky over such trivial things?

It feels like heavy stones are being stacked one by one in my heart. I do not know if he is unaware of my feelings, or if he is doing this more because he knows. Jihyuk met my gaze even more persistently than before and reached out his hand to touch my face.

“Huh? What is it because of.”

He asked in a sweet tone and leaned his head down towards me. Jihyuk, who had naturally kissed my forehead, followed up with a peck, peck, planting a series of kisses on my hair. I stared at him blankly, but the light and soft kisses, like a bird pecking, snapped me to my senses. Startled, I pushed Jihyuk’s shoulders with both hands.

“I told you not to do this! …We’re at school.”

“No one’s here, so what’s the big deal.”

Despite my stern face, Jihyuk smiled, his eyes crinkling brightly.

“Sunbae-nim.”

At the new and sweet title, the thorns I had raised up like a hedgehog melt away. Let’s not be like this, wasn’t it just a moment ago that you were being pathetically jealous, I tried to tell myself, but it was no use. Every time I see that side of Jihyuk that he only shows to me, I cannot control my heart that turns soft and mushy.

Taking advantage of the brief pause in my momentum, Jihyuk’s hand approached again. This time, the hand that landed on my thigh stealthily kneaded the inside of my leg. My waist flinched on its own. I slapped Jihyuk’s hand away with a smack.

“I…told you not to do this.”

“Why are you being like this, are you really not going to tell me? I’m curious.”

He drags out his words as if acting cute, and follows my face as I try my best to turn away. Jihyuk, who forced our eyes to meet, grinned.
“Don’t tell me, is it because that girl asked me for my number earlier?”

“……”

He hit the nail so squarely on the head that there was no room for me to deny it, so I had nothing to say. Seeing me with my mouth clamped shut like a clam, Jihyuk’s eye-smile deepens.

“Is it for real? Because of that?”

“…Yeah. Haa…. To be honest… that’s right.”

In the end, I squeezed my eyes shut and confessed the truth. I could not deny it any longer. Doing so would only make me look more pathetic.

“You’ve probably lost interest in me. I’m older than you, too. …It’s understandable. But….”

“……”

“It’s just, for no reason, my heart felt a bit off. …Unlike me, she’s pretty and… she doesn’t stutter like me, she’s smart, and also….”

I knew it in my head. And yet, actually saying it out loud makes my heart sting and ache. The stuttering words that came out were as clumsy as a boy making his first confession.

But my words could not continue because of the sound of laughter that burst from Jihyuk. While he laughed out loud, I just kept my lips pressed firmly together. Here I am, speaking so seriously, and all he does is laugh, how detestable.

Finally ceasing his laughter, Jihyuk let out a grin, his lips curling up playfully.

“What on earth are you talking about. When have you ever seen me give any other kid a second glance besides you, Teacher?”

“……”

“Ha…. You’re jealous, right now, aren’t you. Fuck… I’m really going to lose my mind.”

Jihyuk, who muttered a curse under his breath, rushes at me recklessly like a large dog and kisses me. With a peck sound, I urgently tried to block his lips, which were trying to kiss me frantically, with my palm, but it was no use. He grabbed both of my wrists, charged at me as I was, and kissed my lips again. Smooch, a playful and loud sound was made.

“Ugh, wait a minute, ugh, eut….”

“This won’t do. My Teacher. I left you alone, and you’re not studying. You’re just having other thoughts. Huh? Is it okay for you to be like this, Teacher?”

I hurriedly pulled my waist back. It was dangerous in more ways than one. As Jihyuk said, there was no one in the lecture hall right now, but someone could still come in, and even if not…

‘…What if he finds out… about my strange condition.’

I squeezed my eyes shut, recalling the stickily wet underwear I had washed by hand this morning. I hate to admit it, but it seems my body had reached its limit. Every time Jihyuk’s hand touched me, my lower abdomen kept aching and feeling heavy. My senses had become so sensitive that my whole body tingled.

Averting my gaze from Jihyuk, I snuck a peek downwards. Sure enough, the front of my pants was bulging. I had only gotten a few light kisses on the mouth, and I was already this hard…. I must be crazy too. And we are in a lecture hall. It was the moment I was about to hurriedly lower my hand to cover myself.

“Wai-wait a minute… here… in here, let’s stop now….”

“Teacher. Here.”

Jihyuk’s voice, lowered with excitement, softly pressured me.

“Do you know that you’ve gotten like this?”

“…Wait a minute, heut….”

“Saying we shouldn’t do this here, and yet, fuck… getting a hard-on in a lecture hall, don’t you know you’re making a completely lewd expression right now?”
His large, warm hand slowly fumbled over my thigh, and then finally headed towards the protruding outline. A moaning sound escaped me on its own as my back bent.

“St-op. Stooop….”

Even to my own ears, my voice was laced with moisture. I looked up at him with pleading eyes, but Jihyuk’s hand only crawled further inside more relentlessly.

“Don’t… do it. There’s a CCTV… there, euk, haa….”

“I’m putting my hand under the desk and feeling you. They can’t see.”

“Ah, ha-euk… euk.”

I grabbed his thick wrist with both my hands and tried to push him away. But my strength drained away on its own due to the excessive pleasure. While I flailed, Jihyuk touched me below with even more explicit gestures. A moaning sound escaped me on its own at the hand gestures that tantalizingly fumbled and tickled the outline, teasing me.

“What’s this. Why are you so sensitive today?”

“Eut, heu-eu…. Ah, stop…….”

“Are you really pent up? At this rate, you’re going to cum just from me touching you over your pants.”

The voice that was harshly teasing me was in the same relaxed tone as when he had been dealing with Sora earlier. I tried to clench my teeth, but my body twisted on its own. I bent over so much that I was almost lying flat on the desk, and I punched and pushed Jihyuk’s shoulder a couple of times with my fist. And yet, far from withdrawing his hand, Jihyuk whispered close to my ear.

“It’s really red here. Like an apple. Should I bite it for you?”

“Ah, no… don’t. Here, heut, in here….”

“Your voice is so lewd. It’s nice to hear. You must really want to do it.”

Huh? his questioning tone is persistent. The same goes for his eyes, like a bird of prey, which were scanning my state with a peculiar glint.

“What’s really wrong with you today? You’re different from usual.”

“Wha… what. N-no, I’m not….”

“Look at this. Your eyes are all glazed over. Did you come here after jacking off thinking about me this morning or something?”

The breath that suddenly hits my ear is hot. As I lay sprawled on the desk, desperately avoiding Jihyuk’s eyes and curling up my body, a certain word that Jihyuk said nonchalantly snatched my attention.

“Or don’t tell me, you had a wet dream or something….”

At that moment, my body flinched with all too much honesty. My vision went blank. Jihyuk would surely figure it out just from this reaction. Someone’s voice, who had once said that I was not good at hiding my emotions, flashed through my mind.

Sure enough. Jihyuk let out a small laugh.

“…What’s this.”

“…Ah, n-no, it’s not. It’s absolutely not that….”

I shot my body upright and waved my hands frantically, but Jihyuk’s eyes were already tinged with a look of amusement.

“Is it true? For real?”

“I-I said it’s not!”

As soon as he heard the strong denial, Jihyuk now began to openly chuckle and laugh. It was a lie that was overly awkward even for me to tell. Seeing me with my ears flushed red and my voice raised, unlike usual, Jihyuk was already completely convinced.

“Wow… that bastard who appeared in your dream is lucky, Teacher. He got to fuck you, Teacher.”

“…No, that’s….”

“Meanwhile, I, the one right in front of you, Teacher, am holding back like I’m impotent. Right?”

I tried to argue that we did not go all the way in the dream, that you had just touched me with your hand, but come to think of it, that would only invite more scathing ridicule. I quietly shut my mouth. Jihyuk’s affectionate yet sinister words continued to pour out.
“Why are you so cute. What am I supposed to do when you get me all pent up, and then go and have such a lewd dream all by yourself. Huh? You should have at least not gotten caught.”

“Stop, stop it….”

My ears are so hot it feels like they are on fire. I glared at him with teary eyes. Jihyuk, who was still snickering, was detestable. Even while he was teasing me like that, his hands did not rest, constantly flicking and subtly rubbing my erect penis.

“Ah….”

Separate from Jihyuk being detestable, this was now really the limit. At this rate, I feel like I might just cum right in my clothes. I was shaking my head, begging him to really stop in a tear-filled voice, when Jihyuk whispered in a sweet voice.

“Should I touch you?”

“He-re, really, heuk, no… no way….”

In truth, I desperately wished for Jihyuk to touch my penis pleasurably. It feels like I could cum right away if he would just grab the shaft with that big, hot hand and pump it up and down a few times. Actually, I wanted to kiss him too, and I wanted to close my eyes and feel his hands touching my body here and there.

The tangled mess of erotic sensations and pleasure was becoming agonizing. Now, my lower abdomen ached with a dull throb. Jihyuk was detestable for pushing me into excessive pleasure in an inappropriate place, and yet at the same time, I most desperately craved his touch. To me, who did not know what to do, Jihyuk whispered.

“Follow me.”

At those words, the thin thread of reason I had been holding onto snapped. As if bewitched, I stood up from my seat. And, just as Jihyuk led, I started walking towards the lecture hall exit. My hurried footsteps were anxious.

“Where, where are we going.”

My small voice, wet with tears, trembled miserably.

“To a place where no one will be.”

He answers so and smiles leisurely. Thankfully, it was lunchtime now, so a large number of people had left the building. We hastened our steps side by side and quickly crossed the empty hallway.

The place Jihyuk led me to was the bathroom at the very end of the hallway. As soon as I realized where and why we were going, my eyes widened on their own. My heart started to stir for a very illicit reason. I had never even thought I would do this kind of act in a place like this….

“Wai-wait a minute. Here, is… Let’s, let’s go to your car instead….”

“How are you going to get to the car with your dick standing up so stiff like that.”

“……”

“Let’s do the car sex next time. For now, I’ll help you get a quick nut off.”

Bang, the bathroom door was thrown open with a sound. Jihyuk’s and my bodies hurriedly rushed into the bathroom. Jihyuk, who had locked the door, looked down at me with reddened eyes and fiddled with my earlobe. This whole situation is so absurd and bewildering, and yet, and yet I could not push Jihyuk’s hand away.

No matter that it was lunchtime and this place was at the very end of the hallway where few people passed, it was still a school. My heart pounded like it was going to burst just thinking about the act we were about to commit in a place like this. This is truly something I had never even imagined doing in all my years of attending school.

And yet, why is my excitement not subsiding… It is something I truly do not understand. No, far from subsiding, from the moment we entered this place, my bottom had been swelling up even tighter. It was so hard now as an overwhelming amount of pleasure washed over me. Even my exhaled breaths trembled thinly.

“Then, qu-quickly….”

“Quickly, what should I do for you. Huh?”

But unlike me, who was in a hurry, Jihyuk just gave light, playful kisses on my lips, peck, peck. His attitude, which was clearly meant to tease me, made me even more anxious.

“Don’t, heut… play around, quickly…. Huh?”

“Ah… that look in your eyes, fuck, it’s so damn lewd… Do it more.”

Huh? Jihyuk, who spoke as if soothing a child, instantly pushed into the inside of my lips and deeply mixed our tongues. I gasped for breath and willingly hung onto his neck, opening my mouth. His hard, hot tongue greedily wrapped around my tongue and sucked. Slurp, slurp, the sticky sound echoed lewdly in the small space.

And And yet, his hands only fiddled with the nape of my neck and my hair, not touching me below like before. His intention was so obvious it was detestable. Every time our lips parted in between, I would look up with a pleading gaze, but Jihyuk would only give a playful eye-smile, as if telling me to hurry up and beg with my own mouth.

Having already run to the bathroom in the middle of studying, I had no leeway to hesitate any further. Knowing that Jihyuk becomes frighteningly persistent at times like these, I finally parted my lips.

“Ji, hyuk-ah… touch… touch me down there….”

“Touch you?”

Only then does a satisfied smile spread across his lips. The hand that had slowly slid down stroked my side, my buttocks. With a click sound, the buckle of the pants I was wearing came undone.

“Here, who made it like this. Huh?”

“Ah, heut… st-stop it and hurry….”

“Who gets this hard at school.”

He spoke playfully, tapping the penis that was tautly tenting my underwear with his hand. As he pulled down the zipper and yanked both my pants and underwear down to my knees at once, my rigidly standing penis popped out with a thump. It was so embarrassing I was going to die, and I covered it with my hand without thinking.

“If you cover it, I can’t touch you. Move your hand, sunbae-nim.”

“Tha, heut, don’t… call me that… Eut….”

I felt like I was going crazy. This whole situation was too much stimulation for me. It was not just any place, it was school. On top of that, in a bathroom, begging Jihyuk to take out my penis and touch it….

“Why not. You are a sunbae-nim. Huh? Does it feel good to have your junior stop studying and jerk you off?”

“Ah, heuk, ah… I, I think I’m going to cum… ah….”

“It’s so wet it’s sticky. Do you know that?”

A warm hand wrapped around the shaft, which, as he said, was already stickily wet. Just that made my hips shoot forward. As he lightly gripped and pumped it up and down a few times, a slap, slap, slap sound, so obscene it was hard to listen to, was made. A loud sound escaped my mouth without me realizing it.

“Ah…! Ugh, ah….”

“You have to be quiet. What are you going to do if other bastards hear your moans.”

As soon as I heard Jihyuk’s low, snickering voice, I bit my lip hard. At that, Jihyuk’s other hand came up and caressed my lips. His red lips swallowed mine again. He mixes our tongues even more stickily than before and plays with his hand lewdly.

Even though he had not touched me many times, my lust surged uncontrollably. White semen finally spurted from the tip. Jihyuk’s large hand caught the semen so it would not splatter everywhere. He held up his sticky and soaked palm to show me and grinned.

“Sunbae-nim. Is it okay for you to be this lewd? Just because I haven’t been able to touch you much lately, you go and fuck me in your dreams. And then cum all over your junior’s hand in a school bathroom.”

I wanted to cover my ears. Even though I had already finished cumming, every time Jihyuk called me sunbae-nim, excitement surged to the point where my lower abdomen tingled. Drenched in the pleasure that had welled up to the brim, all I could do was hang onto Jihyuk’s neck and weakly shake my head.

Is it over now? I need to wash up and get out of here quickly. I thought so with my faint mind, but unfortunately, Jihyuk seemed to have other ideas. He brought his palm, which was covered in semen, straight down and slathered the liquid all over my testicles, which were about to shrink after ejaculating. Startled, my butt cheeks clenched tight.

“Wha-what… are you doing…! Ah…! I, I just came, you know… Eut….”

“You’re the only one who had fun. I want to see my sunbae-nim beg some more.”

In his large grasp, my scrotum was gently kneaded. A moan helplessly flowed from my mouth. While he played around like that a few more times, my vision grew increasingly dim. The flashing sensation was so intense that tears streamed down from the corners of my eyes.

“Stooop… Plea, ase, eu-eung, heu….”

Just then, a certain sound pushed its way into my ears. My hearing and vision, which had been hazily blurred, became sharp all at once. I straightened my back stiffly, held my breath, and grabbed Jihyuk’s wrist. What was getting closer was definitely the sound of footsteps.

“Ah, today’s cafeteria food sucks. We should’ve gone to that place for rice cakes.”

“I know, right.”

The people who had been chatting outside finally came into the bathroom. I guessed there were about two of them. The sound of urinating, the sound of idle chatter. My heart pounded like it was going to explode. The thumping vibration felt like it was going to leap out of my throat, so I let go of Jihyuk’s wrist and covered my mouth with both hands. My lips started to tremble on their own.

At that moment, Jihyuk slowly lowered his body so as not to make a sound. Seeing him slowly kneel in front of me, my heart felt like it was dropping with anxiety.

‘Wha-what are you trying to do.’

I mouthed the question, my face pale. But unlike me, who was tense, Jihyuk still had a face full of mischief. As if to show me, he opened his mouth, stuck out his tongue, and then brought his tongue to the tip of my penis, which was smeared with semen.

In that instant, I almost let out a moan. The insides of my thighs clenched tight.

‘Don’t, don’t do it…!’

I frantically mouthed the words and then covered my mouth with both hands again. It was because Jihyuk had finally taken my penis into his mouth. Slurp, watching my penis enter Jihyuk’s mouth, my vision grew dim again. I almost let out a moan.

Hot, and wet. I am really going to lose my mind. Jihyuk, who is casually doing this even with people outside, and me, who just came and yet is getting hard again….

“Hey, wanna go for coffee?”

“Sure.”

I could hear them, who had been chattering away while urinating, washing their hands at the sink. Only after hearing the sound of their footsteps finally moving away did the strength drain out of my body, which had been so tense I was almost on my tiptoes. I punched Jihyuk’s shoulder with a thwack as he was still holding my penis in his mouth and playing around.

“Are you crazy. Really… with other people here…!”

“Be quiet. What are you going to do if other guys come again.”

“Wha-what are you trying to do again…!”

“Just stay still.”

Jihyuk, who was stubbornly gripping my buttocks, stuck out his tongue and opened his mouth. With an embarrassing schloop sound, he took my testicles into his mouth and rolled the soft scrotum and balls around inside.

“Ah… Heu, euk….”

Really, he is crazy. It was incredibly difficult to watch the lewd act Jihyuk was performing. As I squeezed my eyes shut, the sound of laughter flowed from below. Of course, it was with my penis held full in his mouth.

Jihyuk, who had been rolling and playing with my semen-covered testicles in his mouth as if they were a large, delicious candy, finally spat them out. A sticky, long thread stretched from my testicles to Jihyuk’s lips before snapping with a thump. This time, he opened his mouth and bit down on the penis that had started to stand up again, sucking on it with a slurp sound. My legs trembled.

“Stoop… please… eut.”

Watching his handsome face suck on my penis with obscene sounds was so good it made my head tingle. This is not another wet dream… right? The situation was so stimulating that it hardly felt real, so I kept doubting it.

Jihyuk’s head moves back and forth slowly. Every time the sides of his face hollowed out and then puffed up, pretty dimples formed. His usually cool eyes were tinged with a heated excitement.

Every time I see Jihyuk’s face as he sucks my penis while gently touching my thighs, a certain excitement that I absolutely cannot bear wells up, and I automatically turn my gaze away. It was a sight I could not have even imagined in the past.

Smooch, with a sound, the red piece of flesh comes out of Jihyuk’s mouth and reveals itself. The penis, which once again entered the hot place, relentlessly stabbed the soft roof of his throat. While he unhesitatingly took my member deep inside and sucked on it, Jihyuk kept his eyes raised the whole time, taking in my appearance. As if he would not miss a single moment of my expression as I felt pleasure.

In the end, the feeling of wanting to cum rushed over me again. It was the second climax in a short period of time.

“Ah, heut…!”

I desperately raised my hand to cover my mouth so that a moan would not leak out. My two hands, covering my mouth with all my might, trembled.

“Teacher.”

Jihyuk, who called me in an ordinary voice, stuck out his tongue and licked his own lips. My semen, which had been messily smeared all over, had already disappeared into his mouth.

“My face, sucking your dick, how was it?”

“…Wha-what….”

“This is something only you get to see, Teacher. I’ve never done this for anyone else. And I never will for the rest of my life.”

Jihyuk, who spoke sweetly, plants a couple of kisses on the inside of my thigh, peck peck. Even while he was kneeling in front of me in a bathroom and sucking my penis, he had an attitude as if he was dying from how lovely I was, completely unconcerned by the situation.

“Seeing you jealous is cute but… don’t suffer by yourself.”

My dazed mind recalled the earlier incident a beat too late. Was he being considerate in his own way because of how I was conscious of Sora earlier? I had nothing to say other than that it was a very Jihyuk-like form of comfort.

“Now, get dressed properly. Before other guys come again.”

While I was just blushing from shame and pleasure, Jihyuk pulled up and arranged both my underwear and pants. Jihyuk, who even tidied up my clothes neatly, grins so wide that his dimples show.

“Shall we go. Now.”

“…Th.”

I pulled out my half-hoarse voice and held onto Jihyuk. To be honest, it was a purely impulsive question. Because Jihyuk had been one-sidedly touching and caressing me the whole time.

“…You, don’t you want to…?”

At my question, Jihyuk’s expression momentarily went blank before he let out a couple of small laughs. It was a look of disbelief.

“It seems our Jeonghyun wants to get fucked in the bathroom.”

“Absolutely, that’s, not it… it’s just that only I… did it, so I felt sorry….”

“Don’t worry. I’m going to take you to my place right now and lay you down.”

“……”

I clamped my mouth shut. So that is how it is. Still, even though Jihyuk says that, I know very well that he stopped there because he saw how excessively scared I was when someone came in earlier.

We returned to the lecture hall, and I closed my book and packed my bag. There were still some things to do, but… I figured I could play with Jihyuk for a bit, have dinner, and then work until late at night. The efficiency would probably go up if I did it at Jihyuk’s officetel.

As I was packing my bag while making these calculations, a laugh suddenly escaped me. It was because it felt like I was already taking Jihyuk’s presence in my daily life for granted. And yet, it was a feeling that was not unpleasant at all.

Jihyuk and I slowly walked out of the building. The cool autumn daytime breeze blows gently. The scenery of the campus, embroidered with red and yellow-colored trees, was so beautiful that a gasp escaped on its own. It was fully autumn.

Suddenly, a certain spring day when flowers were blooming came to mind. I also remembered the vow I had made then. On a day when I was slowly breaking and rotting away, I had stood here and strengthened my will to live. That I would definitely return to this campus.

It was a very desperate memory. But now, with the autumn leaves beautifully colored instead of flower petals scattering, and the autumn sunlight generously leaning towards me and sharing its warmth, that memory could no longer emit a foul stench. It was merely preserved as it was, in its festering and damaged state, calmly revealing itself to me. But that memory only functioned as a record of the past, and it had no effect on me whatsoever.

Because I am now standing on campus again, with a bag full of books on my back. Just as I had so desperately wished back then, standing firmly on my own two feet.

“……”

But there was something I had not expected at all back then. It was the fact that I would be standing here like this, smiling together with Jihyuk. Jihyuk, who I had feared as deeply as death. Did the me of back then ever imagine that I would want to walk through the five-colored campus holding hands with him?

The gentle breeze that brushes past my hair is tear-jerking. I took a deep breath. The smell of the forest, the breath of autumn, and the sound of people chatting in the distance mixed together and blew towards me, warmly blanketing my open five senses.

As I looked up at Jihyuk with a smiling face, Jihyuk also met my gaze and smiled back. It was still a sticky and deep gaze, as if to trap me, but within it was a much more complete affection than before.

“What is it. Why are you smiling so prettily. Making a person’s heart flutter.”

My gaze was stolen by his deep dimples, and I returned his answer a beat too late.

“…Because I’m happy.”

He must have been very satisfied with my answer. Jihyuk smiles, his eyes even crinkling into crescents.

It is a smile that makes a person’s stomach churn no matter when I see it. I think I am finally starting to understand a little. Jihyuk’s desire to always be restless and possessive, even with me right beside him.

“It’s cool out. You might catch a cold. Let’s hurry and go inside. Shall we have lunch at the officetel?”

“Uh-huh. That sounds good.”

I walked slowly through the campus with my shoulder next to Jihyuk’s. The sunlight coloring the lawn is dazzlingly beautiful. I leisurely strolled through the campus, secretly imagining walking this place while holding Jihyuk’s hand, and taking this moment of walking through a beautiful place with the person I like to my heart’s content, unlike in the past when I had no leisure and was always running here and there.