FETCH 31

In my mind, the merciless words Han Kang had directed at me surfaced, but I tried my best to ignore them.

Our solid upper bodies pressed together. Han Kang’s breath exploded out heavily. I can’t describe how eerie the energy of the waves flowing out frantically felt. It meant that Han Kang’s condition was extremely poor.

As soon as I became conscious of him, my heart throbbed. A worry settled in my chest—what if I made a mistake and couldn’t control the rampage?

Faced with his actual rampage, tension rushed over me. It was even more so because it was a rampage I had never seen in person. Now that I was about to begin guiding in earnest, I worried that because I was a Guide who manifested through clinical means, I might not be able to guide him properly.

If I had manifested naturally in the first place, I wouldn’t even have these worries. It all felt like my fault. The fact that Han Kang’s first dedicated Guide was a half-baked Guide who manifested through drugs, and that it happened to be me, felt like all my wrongdoing.

Even though I was ready to do everything I possibly could for Han Kang.

Swallowing the sorrow bursting inside him, Jaechan used his hand to pull out a disposable gel that every Guide carries at all times.

Realizing what Jaechan’s actions meant, Han Kang pushed him roughly like a final struggle.

“I told you, don’t. Seriously, don’t…”

I did not listen to his habitual rejection.

Jaechan bit his teeth and pressed his body against him even more persistently. This wasn’t just acting like a slut; I wanted to make him admit with his own mouth that the current situation was better than before.

Jaechan desperately wanted to prove that our relationship hadn’t just rushed toward such a bad phase. Soon, the chill created by Han Kang seeped into his clothes. Regardless, Jaechan, who had pulled off his pants, looked down steadily at Han Kang.

“I’m doing it, I will. Insertion guiding.”

As he completely unbuckled his belt and brought his hand to his waist, Han Kang’s eyes flashed brilliantly.

He had spoken so boldly, but for the first insertion guiding to be like this… He was so nervous that his hands kept fumbling and slipping.

As much as he had a vague dream of becoming a Guide, he also had a vague romance about his first insertion guiding—more specifically, the first time he would have a relationship with Han Kang.

He thought they would blend their bodies while caring for each other in a soft and sweet atmosphere. No matter how much they had tumbled around unable to overcome their excitement during rough kisses, the atmosphere had always been very hot, so he had vaguely expected the relationship to be the same.

But to have a relationship in such an open space.

Since he never imagined they would have a relationship in front of everyone, and during their first joint training at that, his lips kept curling inward.

Moreover, let alone the CCTV, there were cameras installed for analysis because it was their first coordination training. Thinking that all of this would be recorded made the shame double.

Perhaps that was why. Even though he couldn’t even take off his clothes yet, heat rose in his body. Jaechan felt embarrassed and unprofessional for feeling shame and attaching excessive meaning to it while performing the guiding that was commonly carried out at the Center.

He tried to scold himself, asking why he kept having other thoughts when he was just doing what a Guide ought to do. But since a person’s heart doesn’t change as easily as one thinks, his expression gradually sank.

It was then.

Crackle—!

Along with a loud bursting sound, the lenses of the cameras surrounding them shattered all at once, and fragments flew in all directions. After a brief moment of shrinking back in surprise, Han Kang grabbed Jaechan’s hand and trembled violently.

“You. Is it really okay for you to just do it here?”

I didn’t know what his question meant, but somehow I could read anger in his bloodshot eyes.

It must be hard enough to control himself, but he had gone beyond breaking the cameras using his waves, and ice was slowly rising around them. Jaechan swallowed hard as he watched the ice rampart being built to surround the two of them.

Han Kang’s ability, which was said to have built a house in the stadium. Suddenly, the voice of the commentator came to mind.

Han Kang seemed as if he were trying to hide their appearance from others. Seeing him block the view by gathering all his patience even in the midst of a rampage, Jaechan bit his lip hard.

“It’s your first time, is it okay?”

At the repeated question, Jaechan finally shook his head and said no.

Han Kang took in that sight of Jaechan clearly with both eyes. Barely holding onto his consciousness and using his ability, Han Kang was just barely enduring the enormous pain spreading in his eyeballs. Closing his eyes tightly against the tightness that felt like his eyeballs might burst out at any moment, he tightly gripped Jaechan’s wrist and said.

“That, inside. Heugh…”

“First, first stop using your ability for a second, you’re really going to die at this rate…”

“Inside, there’s a temporary guiding room. Go there.”

“Where, which way? Which, which way should I go?”

Jaechan felt like his mental strength was going to crumble at Han Kang’s state, which was worsening by the minute.

He knew he had to keep his wits about him at a time like this, but it just wasn’t working. Feeling like he was really going to panic, he held Han Kang’s hand tightly. For a moment, he felt an eerie sensation from the waves being sucked out.

“Fuck! Are you just going to watch? Won’t you even explain it properly to the kid?”

As soon as Han Kang yelled out, the researchers rushed over from the other side in an orderly fashion. After hearing the explanation that there was a temporary guiding room inside to the right, Jaechan stood up. Simultaneously, other researchers who had come through the rampart picked Han Kang up on a stretcher and ran toward the guiding room.

The guiding room they arrived at was much simpler than the one Han Kang had shown him before, but at least all sides were completely covered, so the shame seemed less.

After laying Han Kang on the bed, the researchers left the guiding room without further explanation. And Jaechan, who was watching him, looked down at Han Kang with a nervous gaze.

“I’m really doing it, the guiding.”

He couldn’t delay any longer. Veins began to bulge on Han Kang’s face, and the sound of him grinding his teeth grew louder. If left like this, the rampage stage would escalate in an instant.

Swallowing his dry spit, Jaechan brought his hand to the buckle he hadn’t fully undone earlier, and just as he was about to pull it down completely.

“Ah!”

“You, fuck…”

In an instant, the position was reversed, and Han Kang climbed on top of Jaechan. His resentful eyes were aimed purely at Jaechan. The area around his sharply raised eyes was full of red bloodshot streaks.

As his breath exploded out roughly, the surroundings began to freeze slowly. Even in that state, Han Kang seemed to be asking, ‘Why on earth are you doing this?’

There was no time to waste being pinned under him leisurely. With his face completely distorted, Jaechan struck his chest and reversed the position again.

The sound of scuffling followed as they rolled several times. Because he had even taken his pants off, the cold touching his skin was even more vivid, yet Han Kang was flailing his limbs, saying he didn’t want to.

“Fuck, just do it once!”

Eventually, Jaechan yelled out. Someone is dying of urgency here, yet he didn’t know how bitter it felt that Han Kang was being stubborn even in this situation.

Does he think I want to blend bodies for the first time in this way? But this is the only environment allowed, so what more can I consider?

When he opened his eyes wide and let out a huffing, rough breath, Han Kang looked at Jaechan with his mouth tightly shut. To that Han Kang, Jaechan said, hiding his hurt.

“Think of it as acting like a slut if that makes it easier for you. I don’t care what you think in your head. But, I can’t stand to see you go wrong, okay? So just do it! It’s work, work!”

As he spoke, his emotions became intense. Since it felt like the pent-up sorrow was surging up a bit, Jaechan put strength into his lips and swallowed his indignation.

He thought if he became a Guide, he would be able to do this kind of skinship with him comfortably. He thought there would be no more reason to stop while being conscious of the deepening skinship, and he thought they might even come to like each other.

“But you… Fuck, do you really have to reject it that much?”

Why was he looking with such contempt, and why was he staring as if resenting him?

The misery he didn’t really want to recall rushed in, and he bit his teeth hard. With a sigh, Jaechan dropped his head and caught his breath for a moment. Then he pulled down his underwear and grabbed his buckle again.

Perhaps the shouting worked, as he didn’t brush his hand away this time. Han Kang was looking at him without even blinking, his lips pressed firmly together.

“…I hate it because it’s work.”

The words muttered very quietly were hardly audible. Thinking it was just another word nitpicking this and that anyway, Jaechan immediately pulled down his drawer waistband and took out his cock.

As soon as his hand touched it, a groan escaped. His penis, which bounced up with strength in the lower abdomen, was already secreting pre-ejaculate and glistening.

You say you won’t do it when your veins are all bulging like this?

Jaechan let out a trembling breath and bent his knees. After positioning his cock between his own buttocks, he pushed a finger deep into himself.

“Ugh…”

It was only natural for an uncomfortable groan to break out. Since he had never even thought of putting a finger in such a place, the act itself was awkward. His body, which had been feeling the cold until just now, also stiffened firmly.

Come to think of it, he had only heard that the back needs to be loosened well, but he didn’t really know how much or how to loosen it. Do I just roughly press around? It was just as Jaechan bit his lower lip hard and was pressing against his unfamiliar inner flesh.

“Ugh…!”

As if it were hard to endure quietly, Han Kang flipped his body over again. Startled by that, Jaechan pulled his finger out.

Han Kang, who had his cock fully out, had eyes that were turned. His masseter muscles were prominent, and a ragged breath broke out. One could tell at a glance that his condition was not normal.

I was thinking that if he rejected me again like this, I would have to perform the guiding even if I had to knock him unconscious.

“Don’t regret it.”

Han Kang said in a cracked voice as if warning. Why did a sense of stubbornness rise at that? Regret my foot—Jaechan, who had truly wanted this from the start, put strength in his eyes and replied.

“I won’t.”