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[Are you coming out now?]

[I’m going. Where should I meet you?]

After that day, Seowon went whenever and wherever Baek Kanghyun called. It didn’t matter if it was night or day, or even in the middle of a lecture. Even though the man never even asked how he was doing unless Seowon texted first, and even though the only time he contacted him was when he wanted to have sex, it was okay. Before the confession, it was hard to even see his face once a day, but now they saw each other almost every day and even shared their bodies.

<I’m here.>

<You’re here? Come here.>

The places where he called Seowon changed every time. There were cars, empty classrooms, club rooms, restrooms, and even outdoors. Even so, doing it outside was a bit much, but before Seowon could say anything about it, Baek Kanghyun would grab Seowon’s buttocks and whisper.

<I want to do it… quickly.>

Because doing it without gel or condoms was a struggle, Seowon made sure to prepare himself before going whenever he was called. In a shameful posture, he loosened his own back and even prepared condoms. Then, into the place that was soft enough to be entered without trouble, Baek Kanghyun would push himself in without hesitation and thrust his hips. Seowon would lean against the wall and weep softly while listening to the man’s panting breath behind him.

<Ah, ah-eut…>

As the meetings with him repeated, the pain he felt at first gradually faded, and a faint pleasure took its place.

He had intended to ask him to use a condom today for sure, but because Baek Kanghyun pounced on him immediately, he failed again. He had said it shouldn’t matter since Seowon’s body couldn’t get pregnant, but Seowon desperately wanted to use a condom if only for the sake of the clean-up. However, today as well, as soon as the man reached his climax, he pushed his waist in and shuddered his lower body, causing a thick flood of semen to pour into Seowon’s body. Seowon panted for breath while pressing his trembling body against the wall.

<Sunbae, excuse me…>

<Why? Do you have something to say?>

Seowon stared blankly at his lower body soaked in sweat and bodily fluids before shaking his head. He thought that because the sunbae, who was now a senior, was busy, had a lot to study, and had many people looking for him, he shouldn’t feel hurt even if the man just left him behind. But regardless of that, there was something Seowon really wanted to ask him today.

What exactly are sunbae and I? Are we dating…?

Sex was the only thing they did when they met. Furthermore, with the exception of the very first time, all sex with him took place outdoors. Even if it wasn’t a grand hotel, if they had just done it at a place like a motel, they wouldn’t have had to end it so hurriedly…

But fearing that if he dared to show his disappointment he would be told to stop, Seowon swallowed his inner feelings again today. I’ll definitely ask to at least have a meal next time, no, at least have a cup of coffee, he thought, making the same vow he had made last time and the time before that.

It was toward the end of the semester when he learned the reality he didn’t want to face. Seowon, who was engrossed in studying for exams ahead of the vacation, visited the club room for the first time in a long while. He had stopped by to pick up some belongings and books he had left behind.

While he was crouched on the floor putting books and belongings into his bag, he heard the sound of someone entering. Because his only purpose was to see Baek Kanghyun, Seowon, who didn’t have any particular friendship with the club members, felt a bit uncomfortable around them. So even after hearing the door open, he stayed still in his spot. He hadn’t intended to hide at all; he planned to get up slowly and say hello in a moment. However, upon hearing a voice that pierced his ears, Seowon froze for a second.

<Baek Kanghyun, you seem busy lately?>

<I am busy. I have to graduate and…>

Somehow, his current position made it look like he was hiding under the table. Furthermore, the place where Seowon was was hidden by cabinets and such, so he wasn’t easily visible.

‘Sunbae?’

It was his voice. He was so happy he almost jumped out, but he held it in. It would have been nice if sunbae had come alone… Seowon fiddled with his phone, which he had switched to silent mode, and sent him a text. He intended to surprise him.

[Sunbae, where are you?]

The 1 next to the chat window disappeared as if he had checked it immediately. And a reply came back instantly.

[At home, why?]

Ah, a small sigh escaped Seowon’s mouth. Why did he lie about being at home when he was in the club room? At that moment, the questions and anxieties he had tried so hard to suppress for three months began to slowly rear their heads.

<Who is it? Ah, it seems like you’re meeting someone lately.>

<Me? Who would I be meeting? No way.>

He heard the sound of the man chuckling. Seowon hugged the pile of books in his arms tightly and held his breath.

<Don’t lie. Who was it? Aren’t you meeting that sophomore from our club? The Beta! The one who never misses a club dinner… anyway, I think I saw you and him together… you’re dating him, right? Baek Kanghyun, honestly, tell me!>

<Dating? No way! Truly not. I don’t even know his name, you know?>

<No? Really? Well… if you don’t even know his name. But what’s with you? Staying with him this long…>

He couldn’t hear the conversation that followed properly. Only the man’s voice saying it was nothing, and that he didn’t even know the name, circled around his ears.

He bit his lips hard, desperately denying that the ‘him’ in their conversation could be himself. Rubbing his stinging eyes repeatedly, he stared intently at the chat window on his phone screen.

[I’m at school. Good luck with your business. ^^]

Sunbae, you’re in the club room right now; I’m in the club room too, so why did you lie? You said you weren’t coming to school today, so what’s the reason you came? I hope the ‘him’ you just mentioned isn’t me…

There were so many things he wanted to send to him. But Seowon couldn’t send a single one of them.

<I should be going now.>

<Already? Not going for a drink?>

<Later… I’m off.>

Even after the two left and the club room became empty, Seowon stayed under the table for a while. He held his breath, waiting for his blurred vision to return to normal and the churning in his chest to subside.

Sunbae Baek Kanghyun

He stared blankly at the man’s chat profile, which was set to the default image. It felt as if needles were pricking the area near his heart, and his breath became shallow. A strange feeling, a bad omen, wrapped around his neck like a snake and squeezed. He had to go to a lecture and had an exam tomorrow, so he shouldn’t be staying like this… but his body, stuck to the floor, wouldn’t move. 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

[Sunbae, can I see you today?]

[Okay. School?]

[Yes, I’m still at school.]

[Then shall we meet there?]

Not long after the incident in the club room, Seowon contacted him first. The reply came quickly, and Seowon hesitated for a moment in front of the last text he sent.

[Understood. See you later.]

He planned to talk to him a bit today. He wanted to exercise the same courage he had used when he confessed to him again today. Rather than suffering alone while dwelling on the conversation he had overheard, he felt it was right to hear the story directly from him and clear up the misunderstanding.

Before going to meet him, Seowon stood in front of the mirror and checked his appearance. He was the definition of a typical college student seen commonly on campus; no, today he looked even uglier than usual. His shoulders were slumped, and his expression was nothing but gloomy.

He took off the glasses perched on the tip of his nose and put them in his bag. He rubbed his pale face vigorously and applied lip balm to his lips where the skin was peeling white. Even so, he didn’t look particularly better, but since he was meeting him for the first time in a while, he wanted to look even a little bit good.

<You’re here?>

The place where he met him was a classroom in a building located in the most secluded part of the campus. Because the classroom without lights was dark and damp, creating a gloomy feeling, Seowon didn’t like this place very much. However, because Baek Kanghyun seemed to like this place, he hadn’t expressed any dissatisfaction until now.

<It’s been a while.>

As soon as he saw Baek Kanghyun’s face, his heart, which had been frozen solid, melted away. Seowon had liked him for so long that his body and mind became defenseless just by looking at him. As he shared his body with him, his heart became even more deeply mixed, to the point where anything the man said sounded good. With a soft smile, Seowon spoke to him affectionately.

<You must have been busy. I was also quite frantic.>

<Yeah, I was busy.>

The man, who had slid his body close, wrapped an arm around Seowon’s waist. After the belt buckle was released and the zipper was pulled down, a cold sensation seeped between his buttocks. The man, pressing his lips close to Seowon’s ear, whispered in a soft voice.

<Did you loosen up before coming?>

Seowon shook his head. Tsk, the short sound of tongue-clicking stimulated his guilt. Soon, wet fingers dug inside. Because the man’s voice, saying it was narrow and hot, was sweet, Seowon was already standing with his legs spread before he knew it. A short while later, the two were coupled like beasts.

<Keu-eut!>

Hard muscles pressed tight against his buttocks and then slowly pulled away. The traces of lust the man left behind flowed slowly down the inside of his thighs. Just like the entrance that was burning hot, his cheeks and the area around his eyes also became heated. Had tears come out? In the dry act they had for the first time in a while, there was no pleasure for Seowon’s share.

<Phew…>

The air inside the classroom, which had been cool, was now heated up. While Baek Kanghyun straightened his clothes, Seowon barely gathered himself and crouched on the floor. Baek Kanghyun’s movements were busy, as if he intended to leave now. Seowon raised his head and looked up at him. In an instant, his eyes met the man’s, and soon Seowon opened his mouth.

<Sunbae, do you happen to know my name?>

<… What?>

As if he never expected to be asked such a thing, the skin on his face crumpled slightly. But it was only for a moment. Soon, a smile resembling sunlight hung on his smooth face.

<Why are you asking something like that? It’s a bit late for that, isn’t it?>